Dang! I'm changing directions again  

LoveHandles686 68M
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7/30/2005 12:06 pm

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Dang! I'm changing directions again

I guess I'm not going to be celebrating my 8 day anniversary on AdultFriendFinder with fireorks and confetti. I've gotten so wishy-washy that I make Charlie Brown look like a focused individual.

I guess I'm making progress but I be darned if I have a clue where I'm heading. Several days ago I made a date to meet with a gentleman at a local Starbucks. This is proof positive that you can make contacts on AdultFriendFinder. His proposal was very open, lets do oral sex and my initial response was "Sure, your place or mine". However, neither of us were really able to host an encounter so we decided to meet face-to-face to talk about what to do and where to do it. He is a very attarctive man, very open and quite caring. Early this morning I decided to let my wife know what I was planning, I just couldn't convince myself to try something behind her back. She was clearly shocked and hurt but not mad. I could see dissapointment in her eyes, something I seem to be seing there nearly every day. We talked for nearly two hours and she actually let me hold her in my arms. Her attitude of "no sex, no way" hasn't budged but I begged her to just consider giving me the opportunity of a "mercy fuck". I don't hold much hope for that but I felt I should at least give it a try.

I've come to the realization that a male/male relationship isn't what I'm looking for , I still want a woman, my God, my eyes seem to devour nearly evry woman I see. If there is such a thing as mental/visual the I am guilty as charged. I sat in the Starbucks with my "date" where we chatted for nearly 45 minutes. All the while I was with this attractive man who was telling me that he wanted to give me oral sex ny eyes (and mind) were following every young woman who walked through the door. We left the Starbucks and went our seperate ways, him to his active bisexual life style and me to my empty bed in my own bedroom down the hall from my wife.

Life sucks and then you die!

redmustang91 57M  
8599 posts
8/1/2005 8:53 am

Do not give up! There are pleanty of neglected women, closer to your own age, looking for a nice married guy to fuck. You just have to find the right one or two! It takes time but you can do it! If you must have a young one you may need to pay a professional!

LoveHandles686 68M

8/1/2005 10:50 am

Thanks for the vote of confidence. I'm not after young girls althought I will say that the scenery there is awesome, it's the food of fantasy. I'm greatly encouraged today (Monday), just read the blog entry from today to find out why.

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