Insecurities or Cowardice?  

LonelyArtist_35 46M
35 posts
6/30/2006 8:11 pm
Insecurities or Cowardice?

I was out having ice cream with mother yesterday evening and as we were about to leave the parkig lot several cars pulled in. One pulled in by my passenger side door. The person driving this car was an attractive young lady . . . very much so! Beautiful that is.
Anyway after she parked she began digging through something in the passenger seat of her car. Maybe looking for something in her purse. We were sitting there as she searched for whatever it was and my mind was racing.
Should I get out of the car when she's done and introduce myself, if we don't back out of our parking spot first. If I do how awkward will it be?
Would she be one of the few who wouldn't have a problem with the fact that I'm still living with my mother? How self-conscious will I be if I did try to meet this lady while a passenger in my mother's car? And how would she percieve this? . . . The lady I'm interested in meeting that is.

It oughtta be self-evident what happened. I allowed my fear of rejection to prevent me from making an impulsive decision. Now I'm kicking myself.
As this beautiful stranger finished rooting through her purse, or whatever might have been in the passenger seat mother began backing our car out of the parking space.
I could have asked her to stop so I could get out of the car. I mean how awkward to attempt a hook-up with mother sitting right there beside me in the car. Then again I also felt that even outside the car it would be uncomfortable. So idiot moi keeps my thoughts to myself as we pull out of the space and this lady gets out of her car.
She looked on as we backed out and I grinned. What's making me regret my inaction now is that she returned this gesture. Might that have been a sign to me that I should have risked it? Should I have had mother let me out before getting turned to leave the lot?

Any wonder I've been a LonelyArtist for . . . ever?!

amoldenough 70F
16436 posts
6/30/2006 10:13 pm

Never miss an opportunity. You never know, you might be missing "The One", and you will always wonder what might have been. I think you should have risked it. Now if I could only take my own advice!

"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."


7/5/2006 9:47 am

If it is meant to be then the opportunity will come again.

cherokeeangel5 41F
15 posts
7/24/2006 3:58 pm

Never give up, and never give up on hope. Mike, you are a very intelligent, sweet, loving, and caring man. Don't ever cut yourself short. And never be afraid to take risks. Life is too short not to.

Become a member to create a blog