Ive Been Thinkin To Hard Again  

Lamorenita22 33F
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3/2/2006 10:14 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Ive Been Thinkin To Hard Again

Ive been thinking about a lot of shit lately maybe its because Ive been doing a lot of reading lately. Anyways I have sat and thought about all the men I have been with the reasons I was attracted to them and why I slept with them and blah blah. Last week I saw Carlos he came over we did our thing and he went home or went to work. Im not sure what and I really dont care to be honest. Lately I have realized there are a lot of things missing in my life and sexual satisfaction is not the number one thing on my list right now. I have been having orgasm problems lately I have not had an internal orgasm in 8 months. At first I thought it was the size of the persons dick. Then after reading a lot of shit about the G spot and blah blah I thought maybe its because the right spot isnt being hit. Then I sat down and thought about it for a while and now Im starting to think its because passion has been missing from some of the encounters that I have had. Carlos has only made me cum once and that was 8 months ago. My friend that I was seeing (and guess what he just started talking to me again) has tried but he hasnt succeded. I think I need to relax more and let myself go and stop dealing with men that cant last more than 15 minutes. ****giggle*** I dont think dick size has anything to do with it at all my husband has a 5 inch dick maybe 5 1/2 and back when I was madly in love with him (or so I thought at the time) we fucked liked bunnies and I had orgasms. But there was a lot of moaning and hair pulling involved in that so I would have to say passion had something to do with that. Another thing is I dont kiss.....I give my husband those quick 2 second kisses but thats not intimate if u asked me. I have not intimately,passionately whatever u want to call it kissed anyone in about 7 years. I hate spit I really really really hate spit. Cant u just tell? ****laugh**** I plan on getting past that issue someday hopefully it will be soon. My husband used to get spit all over me and that used to make me sick to my stomach. But maybe thats because I was pregnant ***laugh*** So far I have decided to be even more pickier about who I mess with. Miguel called me yesterday and he wants to see me Saturday but I think I might cancel that appointment. There is nothing wrong with Miguel he dresses nice he smells good and he is cute (but his grill is fucked up but thats ok)But we cant fuck because he can only get away for 1 hour and Im sorry but cars are hard places to have sex in especailly here in Omaha. Im not saying it cant be done but its harder when you dont have tinted windows. Plus I am not skinny right now but I am short thank god! So its not like my legs have to hang out the window or anything like that.***laugh***Anyways I dont really relax with him. I have known him for a while but we have never fucked I played with his dick once and that was because he dared me. But anyways I know Im not going to get any Saturday so Im thinking whats the point. Satisfying him wont really satisfy me I will just be the same sexually frustrated woman I am right now. And I will be dealing with the same issues I have now and trying to find resolutions to those issues. Im not one of those talented people who can get off by getting someone else off. If I could maybe I wouldnt be so frustrated ****laugh*** Im off 2 bed!!!!!


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