MY MESSED UP DREAM'S  

LONELY5207 48M
244 posts
8/31/2006 10:45 am

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9/8/2006 9:28 pm

MY MESSED UP DREAM'S


SOME TIME I FEAR TO GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE OF WHAT I MIGHT DREAM. I USED TO HAVE GOOD DREAM'S BUT FOR THE LAST 5YRS I HAVE HAD MESSED UP ONE'S. I THINK THAT I HAVE ONLY HAD ABOUT 2 GOOD ONE'S IN THAT TIME. SOME TIME'S I CAN'T REMEMBER THEM BUT I KNOW THAT IT WAS BAD BECAUSE I WAKE UP IN A COLD SWEAT AND I FEEL LIKE SOME THING BAD HAS HAPPENED OR GOING TO. I TRY TO STAY UP LATE OR NOT SLEEP AT ALL.
I WOKE UP ONE NIGHT THINKING THAT THERE WERE GUN'S GOING OFF RIGHT BY MY VAN AND PEOPLE WERE DIEING AND SCREMING, I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS REAL. I ASK MYSELF WHY DO I HAVE THESE DREAM'S LIKE THIS WHAT DO THEY MEEN. I HAVE ALL KIND'S OF DREAM'S.
WHAT SCARE'S ME THE MOST IS SOME COME TRUE. WHEN I WALK DOWN THE STREET AND SEE SOME THING THAT WAS IN A DREAM I TURN AROUND OR TRY TO CHANGE WHAT I SAW IN IT. NOT ALL ARE BAD SOME ARE GOOD. I HAVE NO GUILT OR WORRY'S IN LIFE.IF GOD IS USING ME TO SEE OR CHANGE THING'S I JUST WITH HE WOULD FIND SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE WHAT I SEE SOMETIME'S AND IF HE IS TRYING TO DRIVE ME CRAZY HE IS DOING A DAM GOOD JOB OF IT. I SEE THING'S BEFORE THEY HAPPEN SOME TIME'S, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW OR SEE. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AND DREAM THE WAY I USED TO. SOME TIME'S I THINK HE KNOW'S HOW MUCH IT HURT'S AND SCARE'S ME SO THAT IS WHY I WAKE AND NOT REMEMBER THEM BUT THEN LATER I WILL SEE OR HEAR SOMETHING AND KNOW I HAVE HEARD OR SEEN IT BEFORE.

LONELY5207 48M
261 posts
9/3/2006 11:10 am

IT SUCK SOMETIME YA SOME OF THE TIME I LET THEM BECAUSE I'VE SEEN THE OUTCOME AND KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THEM.

TAKE CARE BRO,
LONELY5207


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