Why is it?  

LI_Cherry 45F
28 posts
12/27/2005 1:56 pm

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4/29/2006 6:34 am

Why is it?

Well, having made it 3/4's through the holidy season. I am just now having a chamce to breathe.
Seriously, as if the holidays, work, taking care of the family and myself aren't enough to do, the comedians that put the calendar together only god knows how long ago had the sense of humor to put them all in a row. Don't forget that V day the blackest day is still yet to come.
I don't want to sound like the Grinch or anything but this year as we're supposed to be displaying all types of love for one another and mankind in general,each day I would witness some demonstration with out fail that was completely contrary to the basic concept of the holiday season.
I guess this time of year really brings out the best in some people and the absolute worst in others.
In the midst of all this mayhem, I was also making an effort to read and sift through the zillions of e mail responses I have received here. Thank you everyone. Sincerely. Thank you for being so out going. A few times I would answer an e mail here or there and exchange numbers.
There were a few promising prospects...
But no one yet I really have wanted to get tight with. There was one guy sounded great, looked great, seemed to have a good sense of humor too,
but no... Just when I was actualy going to meet him, he said someting to me that completely sent me running in the other direction.
Afterwards, when he realised I wasn't going to show up or call him he I M ed me. With an angry IM yeah, imagine that all caps! he then demanded an explanation etc. all I could do was tell him the truth. I have just become single, after an amazing 5 year relationship. One, that sadly came to an end only a few weeks ago. My heart is bruised so badly I am surprised it's even beating . I loved this man, still do. He is going to be one hard act to follow. He was kind, patient loving both in and out of bed, funny, smart and really well hung. My heart aches each time I think of letting him go. But... such is life my friends. I am in a place now, that is very new.
A little scary to tell you the truth. I know I will be o.k. somehow I just have to be. It is a hard place to be. Anyhow, I have said enough boring things for one day. Too many i suppose.
I will break out my accoustic and play till my heart feels like I can pretend it doesn't hurt so much.
Probably an hour of solid playing should do it.
Wishing you all the very best...


topboost 63M

12/27/2005 8:48 pm

Such is the nature of life to break through to a better understanding of oneself! Lots of feelings there to emphatise all that is blues! Makes me feel like playing that minor motif in the Gary Moore song "Still got the blues for you" ...

LI_Cherry 45F
10 posts
12/28/2005 12:07 am

Great song... I just might play it myself, right now.
You are so right it does make us have a greater understanding, through the pain there is growth. Hopefully healing. On the upside I have almost finished two really great blues tunes, they just errupted.
I am grateful for that. I just sent the proofs up to the library of congress. So they are done, mb I've got some more in there...
Hey, thanks so much for the kind words.


LI_Cherry 45F
10 posts
12/28/2005 12:16 am

you already did dude...i was merely making an observation about human nature and the holiday season. I have one thing to tell you,
"Don't judge me,you don't know me." Tupac...

rm_tdude200 55M
104 posts
12/28/2005 5:37 am

Dont worry Cherry dont be down i sure there is someone out there that will be with you and take care of you in bad times. You are a real nice down to earth women. Dont let pne bad apple spoil your day!
Brighter days are coming i sure(wink)

LI_Cherry 45F
10 posts
12/31/2005 7:31 am

Thank you, T.
I know you're right, but this will be my first New Year's Eve alone, I am single for the first time in a very long time.
I am sooo blue, it's a good thing I play the Blues, bc if I were playing music of any other genre I would be bumming everyone out.
I have been invited to 3 parties none of which I intend to attend.
I still want that one kiss at midnight after dancing the night away.
I don't see that happening this year.
I am just glad that this time of year is almost over.
Talk to you soon.

rm_hazelblue72 44M
5 posts
1/1/2006 6:19 pm

With the New Year upon us Cherry I hope you give yourself a chance to heal but I do understand how you must feel after a long term relationship . Give youself time you will learn to get back in it dont rush. Meanwhile keep writing it can only help God Bless Happy New New Year

rm_kgman9 53M
59 posts
1/3/2006 3:23 pm

THAT which does not kill us just makes us stronger.I to have just gone through the worst time of my life lost everything and everybody,but i know in my heart things will change and eventully get better to a point of not feeling the pain anymore of what life brings.What comes to mind for me is the last song that johnny cash did by nine inch nails,it described so vividly and deeply what he went though in his life,it was of coarse called ~ HURT ~ i was never a big country fan,except for hank williams sr,i am mostly rock and roll and blues ,jazz but this song really touched me and made me realize that life is pain and hurt and without it we would never grow and blossom into something more beautiful then before.SO ive desided to use the pain make it work for me not againest and not to let it ruin me but to let it build me into something better then i was before.carpi~deim~kgman9

rm_FFVSartoris 51M
6 posts
1/3/2006 5:05 pm

You "Gotta Right to Sing the Blues"... take your time... you have some great cards to play... and the word PLAY is the key.

Love is a ways down the road. But you know that. Sent you a direct e.


rm_Yknotme_69 52M
206 posts
1/14/2006 4:43 pm

Life is a sucession of lessons which one must experience in order to learn from them..the good thing is, you have an outlet with yr music.

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