|Blogs > KiltedCelt2 > Semi-sexless in Portland|
You never know what you are capable of until you push yourself. As I sit at this computer, I am glad that the week is over but dread the coming 48 hours. I have been living in a near sexless marriage for the last 11 years.
I always figured things would get better. I have busted my chops to do everything that has been asked of me. I have even taken interests that I would not normally have chosen to get some quality time in. In the past couple of years this has gone largely un-noticed as she slowly vegitates in front of the tv or reads on her end of the couch.
The biggest fights we have had in recent memory are not over money or anything critical to anyone other than myself. It is for that little piece of loving, the few minutes of shared warmth, the acknowledgement that I exist and might have needs. Then she puts on that face of "Come on let's get this over with" and thumps off to the bedroom. Who could maintain an erection with those loving words.
Hence I have posted myself to the world. I have gone outside of my comfort zone to see if I can find a median to grasp on to. I don't want to scrap all of the other miriad portions of my life that makes it worth living. I am looking to find a way to fill that small part of my life that is a void currently.
Well, I will end this for now and take back up at a future time.