Not Enough Coffee to Make the World go round and round and round and round  

Kaliedascope61 41M
3157 posts
6/21/2006 7:16 am

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6/22/2006 5:07 am

Not Enough Coffee to Make the World go round and round and round and round

There is not enough coffee

I miss the Brookshire brothers. My morning routine of getting up and showering, and driving the quarter mile to get my Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee, and the little old lady who only wants me to have just a bite of the fried pie.

I woke up with my head pounding this morning, that was hours ago, my head is still pounding. The amount of Excedrin this is going to require to get rid of is probably illegal.

When I was in the military I would have to work through these headaches, no matter how bad it got, I had a job to do regardless of how I felt. I remember one morning before the sun was shinning, we were packing boxes for an upcoming cruises, and preparing the shop for the departure. I had gotten to work the day before and finished my shift 12 hours later. It was my watch at the barracks that night. Eight hours of telling people to turn off there radio and get to bed, all the while wishing I could sleep. I didn't dare take a nap between my watch, and my scheduled time to be at work, I would have never woken up from it. My head was splitting open, I could feel each capillary in my forehead throb, and as I was packing those metal boxes I made a promise to myself. If I ever get through this, I would never force myself through a day with my head feeling like this.

I've broken that promise many times, and many times I have said to myself that I wouldn't do it again, but that drive inside to complete, and finish what ever I am doing keeps taking over, and over riding. It is a conflict of pain, and the desire to feel productive.

I have been to doctors, and brain specialist each one of them tried to put me on anti depressants saying I get headaches because of stress. Each time I would take them for about a week before throwing them in the garbage. I still got the headaches and the meds just made me feel like someone else, they were fucking with my thought process and made me think I didn't know who I was.

I know why I get these headaches, and never understood when I told these doctors why they would not listen. Every one of them was so interested in prescribing to me the next big thing in anti depressants that I felt they weren't looking for the reason why. It's not due to stress, or anything mental.

I get them because I cracked my head open on a concrete driveway when I was 12 playing football with my friends. I get them because I didn't tell my parents about it because I was afraid that they wouldn't let me play anymore, that my dad would have blamed my friends for hurting me and I would have been alone. I get them because I went through two weeks of dizziness and nauseous and toughed it out as best as a 12 year old kid could.

Did they notice? I'm sure they might have thought I was a little strange during that time. But with five kids, with busy schedules, and two parents do the math, I just need a new routine.

MWWwantmore 51F

6/21/2006 7:59 am

Wow! Sorry you have a headache hun, wish I could help relieve it

I'll have a cafe, mocha, vodka, valium latte to go please!

Good girls go to heaven.....bad girls go down!!

Christabel168 44F

6/21/2006 9:04 am

I feel for you.. and understand those headaches (I got them so severe it would cause me to worship those Gods.. lol) -Went through doctors and scans of my head.. you name it.. they prescribed expensive pills, so roughly everytime I got one I had to pay fifty dollars to get rid of it..

One day a guest that came to the hotel told me to try benedryl next time.. for allergies.. He was from over sea's paid to come in for some reason.. and.. the man was right.. now I feel them coming on.. take a allergy pill.. and they are gone.. Now why couldn't the first ones know that?.. I wonder.

NSAAddict 42F

6/21/2006 12:11 pm

Sorry you've got a killer headache Kal, between that and the chafing you must be in some pretty bad shape... hope both headaches go away soon

HBowt2 59F

6/21/2006 2:48 pm

glad my head is not as bad as yours....mines just sore from crying....hope your feeling better soon...take care....HB2xx

champagnechaser 41F
1639 posts
6/21/2006 3:30 pm

I know how to fix it

mycin62 54F

6/21/2006 5:38 pm

I can sympathize with you on the headache thing. For years I would get these awful migraines, that would last for days. I went to the doctor and got my insulin level tested, it was too high, I was put on glucophage, a diabetes medicine (I don't have diabetes, just high insulin) and almost immediately my headaches went away!!

Phuc_Buddy 46M

6/22/2006 4:58 am

Hey K it is more than a quater mile and there is no fried pie but there is a great little coffee shop in my neck of the woods that has your java hook up!

Hope you feel better man

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