New month......new week....new everything.  

KKOSRHO78MG 38M
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5/2/2005 12:41 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

New month......new week....new everything.

Well just woken up. I don't know why I am feeling so happy today......such a strange feeling.......lot time ago to feel a little like this. Maybe it is the smell of the coffee teasing my nose......maybe I saw some good dreams when I was sleeping......maybe it is because finally May arrived and Eastern here passed through.
So many drinks this week, so many food.......food? A yeah, it was the period now, that you don't eat oil, meat, milk and you know. When Eastern comes then you eat them all together....... in 1 hour you want to eat what you had not tasted for 1 Week. Fantastic BBQ, family around you...... laughing people.....and love is on the air.
I love Eastern....I love Christmas......I love many other days...the ones that brings all your families together.....remind you other things.
First of May passed through but I will celebrate it today.....will have again BBQ.....will all familly be together for one more time.
Maybe I am so happy of these.....maybe it is just the day you wake up with a mood and don't know why.
I will drink that coffee.....I will smoke my cigarrette and after..... when all arrive.......will just prepare the BBQ to eat.
There is only one problem now I think or better ..... I feel. My stomach is already feeling ready to explode. So food.... much food... lot food and still wanting to eat.
I am a thin Man..... a very thin one....... and my stomach these days has grown like being pregnant over 3 months. That looks really funny ..... that is funny........ that is something when I look in the mirror and give a big smile on it.
I know one thing although ..... just one thing. It will not be also tomorrow there. This stomach is not mine....... it is impossible. Until now I have never take any kilo .... any grammar of me..... it's my body..... it is just so.
It doesn't mind me....... surely I wished to had some extra pounds on me ..... extra kilos on my skin or better under my skin ....but that doesn't mean that I am not happy as being so.
Maybe I have to cut the night going out. Maybe I have to sleep a little more, maybe I have to make fewer moves......stop smoking.....or better stop having almost everyday sex. I know that these could help but I don't consider of that now...... No I will not stop enjoying my life.... I will keep so until I get tired.....bored or anything. Life is short....too short and also you have only one change to live it also. I don't want to regret it when time comes.
I will, after the BBQ, go to wake my girlfriend and go for a coffee, down to the beach......just the two of us. Maybe we will be able also to swim into the water....or even have a "sunbath". Yes I stopped the phrase "payed Woman", didn't like it at first time at all. We are spending good time, doesn't matter her job to me.......If I feel more comfortable....or feel the true love again.....then I will take her off that job! But to be honest like usually, I still didn't feel this...the real love.....the one I am looking for. We pass really good time but nothing more. We change opinions all the time, laughing all the time, trying staffs but something is missing.
On whatever......food is calling my name, people are waiting for me...... that plate is moving and scratching the table........ I will not leave it fall down.

Just Me --- EAGLE KK


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