Let's Get the Ball Rolling  

JustCurious0009 41M
3 posts
11/16/2005 8:17 pm

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Let's Get the Ball Rolling

Argh, I'm feeling frustrated because I want my first-ever post on my first-ever blog to be kick-ass! But instead, I feel that it will suck. But hey now, that's pretty pessimistic. After all, I've only just started typing it. Let me start over. Hi! I'm a happy person. Really. Well, happy, along with being moody and sarcastic sometimes. And according to my soon-to-be-ex-wife, I'm the most awful person on the face of the earth. Anyway, a little about me: after three years of marriage, my wife decided that she couldn't live with me anymore and moved out, along with our three-year old son. This happened back in early August. The next month, she filed for divorce. I did all the usual shameful stuff, begging, pleading, etc...to no avail. She had her mind made up and there was no way in hell I was going to change it. Now it's November, and I finally feel like I'm starting to turn the corner. My anger at her is finally starting to outweigh the love that I unfortunately still feel for her. I don't want to sound whiny, but she has been unbelievably cold-hearted and cruel to me these last couple months, yet she maintains that she wants to be "civil". As long as it's entirely on her terms, I guess. To make this situation even more difficult, we work at the same place, in the same department even, so we see each other every single day. She has gone crying to human resources repeatedly to tell them that I'm "harrassing" her, she has told her lawyer about every little thing I say and do that could possibly be construed as harrassment, has informed me to stay away from her new place or else she'll call the police, etc. All I've done is tried to talk to her about working things out, at least going to marriage counseling, but her mind is completely closed. I haven't been stalking her, or calling her names, or threatening violence towards her, or anything at all like that. Even while we were still together, it wasn't THAT bad. True, we argued an awful lot, but isn't that normal, to some extent? It's not like I was beating her up or cheating on her, or any of the normal terrible stuff that causes spouses to seek a divorce. Anyway, I've rambled on about this long enough, but hey, it's my blog, so kiss off

To sum it up, the divorce is in progress now. She doesn't give a fuck what's going on in my life, and I think I'm finally coming out of mourning enough to realize that I can actually HAVE FUN doing whatever the hell I want to now. I no longer have anyone to answer to, and I'll be damned if I'm not going to enjoy myself as much as I can. The best revenge is living well, and that's what I aim to do. I'm going to try to get involved in doing things I either couldn't or wouldn't do before, and being on this website is one of them. I live in one small town, and work in another, and I realize it's possible that someone I know could find me on here, especially with my picture being posted and all, but my attitude right now is that I don't give a fuck. Whatever happens, happens. I haven't actually met anyone on here as of yet, and I'm a standard member so I can't actually e-mail anyone, but I'll do a bunch of winking and blog posting, and it'll be interesting to see how it plays out.

All right, I guess that'll do for my first post. Maybe it wasn't so shabby after all? Feel free to comment, if you want. Thanks for reading.

eefan5 57F

11/17/2005 1:42 pm

thta pretty much sums up how i felt after my divorce, only my hubby ran of with someone else who was older than me at the time, this was over 20 years and another husband ago . you go baby get all you can while you can, you might be surprised at what happens when you least expect it. Good Luck, Cheers donna

Become a member to create a blog