and now.. for a moment of reality  

JustAGuyInTn 52M
16 posts
7/22/2006 2:11 pm

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8/1/2006 1:53 pm

and now.. for a moment of reality

no shit.. there I sat in a foxhole...

third morter attack today. Man this sucked. I sat there thinking to myself and ignored the sound of incoming morter rounds... deafening explosions around me.... shouts of others who were running to seek cover, and those who were yelling at them....

man this sucked.

I sat there wondering what the messhall would be serving for dinner. What I wouldn't do for a thick juicy steak. It seemed like yesterday that I was complaining to myself while staring into the fridge that there wasn't anything to eat... flipping the channels on the TV thinking... man... 200 channels and nothing to watch

What the hell am I doing here?

Another round explodes less than 100 yards away...

damn.. .they're getting good.

this sucks.

I thought for a bit about climbing out of my foxhole, taking my M-16 and shooting the SOB who was taking an already sucky day and making it worse... but... who am I kidding? I don't care enough about whats going on to get pissed enough to do something that stupid. I just sat there... waiting for it to be over.

It was just a fucking hot day... sweat poured from my brow... stupid helmet band was already soaked and didn't have time to dry overnight from yesterday.... my body armor was chaffing on my shoulders. At least the hole was cool. I wished that I was up flying instead of being stuck in this stupid hole. Looking down at the goings on and thinking... wow.. that must suck.

It does.

Things got quiet for a while.... the shouting reduced to a din of incoherant sounds... the explosions stopped.


I'm back now.... no more explosions.... no more sirens... no more discomfort.

Why the hell do I keep going back to that bad place? Why won't it just go away? Why can I still hear the sound of rounds flying overhead, the smell of acrid smoke from burnt powder?

sometimes I wish it would stop.

this sucks.


7/23/2006 8:04 pm

Sorry you were feeling this way darlin'. Unfortunately, things happen in life that can't be changed or taken away. They are forever with us. Is there anything positive in it that you can draw upon? Wish I had some incredible insight or words of comfort to help.

rm_marnisway 85F
5018 posts
7/29/2006 8:03 pm

..wish it ...were untrue.



Nothing is ever the same... when it comes to pleasures.

with a hint....the erotic senses will manifest into an abounding mess of flesh

the mind needs fulfillment of the body

if it feels good is good

I've done it again...*S*

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