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Bed Time Story...
Bed Time Story...
“A through knowledge of the elements takes us more than half the road to mastership”
Amazing what I have in my book collection.
Yesterday before going to bed I went through my chess book collection and I kind of stumbled upon this old 1st edition book of one of the greatest chess players of all time, Mr. Aron Nimzowitsch.
The reason I'm mentioning and quoting this statement is that after I read it I spend the next sort of hour thinking about it and finally realized that it was applicable to pretty much everyone (if not primarily me).
This was what I though and if you don't mind I'd like to share it with you.
I think everyone has their own individual "elements”. These elements mostly consist of things or facts that we live with everyday. Things like bills, jobs, kids, girlfriend, boyfriend, friends, family, these and more only to name but a few.
What I did realize after reading that statement was that, although we tend to have all of these so called “elements” we tend (in my very own personal opinion) to fail on understanding them and ultimately controlling them, or mastering them.
Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that everything and everyone around us should be throughly analyzed, far from it, what I'm trying to suggest is that sometimes if we were to stop and think about all the different things that actually constitutes our life and try to understand them and the reason for them being there we would undoubtedly gain more happiness and stability from them.
Here I go again, this is actually better said then done... Look at me for instance I can't even control my bank account most of the time let alone the so called “elements” I'm trying to describe here.
But you know what? In a weird way it makes sense, looking back, the times I was the happiest was the time that all the things I was surround by made sense, it was the time I was closest to mastering them. Why? Because I understand the reason for them being there.
I dunno, mybe I'm just babling on about something I have no idea or concept of. Maybe I'm just trying to justify why at the moment I'm so unstable. But one thing is for sure;
The one thing I want to do is control my life, and beginning to understand the things around me and how I can benefit better from them can only lead to an overall improvement on how I feel.
So for me, at the end of the day the above statement makes a hell of a lot of sense looking at it from this perspective...
Writing and listening to:
“Filla Brazillia ‒ Leonids”
Mental note... . o O ( I gotta start talking about sex so more people will read my blog, yeah, aaaahhhhggghh...)
6/25/2005 2:41 pm
LMAO! sex may catch more attention hun, especially on THIS site!|
However, that isn't so for some of us.
As to your 'view' on things, this is my 'view'. I'll try to make this as short as possible. LOL!
Life has many elements that test us. If your whole life and everything in it made sense and you had full control over it all, would you really be happy with that? or would you want a change of pace from time to time? Some of us would and some of wouldn't.
I believe that as we begin to fully comprehend each element, it begings to make complete sense and we learn to master it. Then, the next lesson must come. Some of us prefer to understand everything around us and be able to control it. But, maybe, just maybe, life needs to take us out of our comfort zones and test us...if not, how will we ever learn more and become wiser and stronger?
I am by no means saying that your life should always be a confusing chaos. But, I have always believed and will continue to always believe is that if it weren't for everything I have been through, I wouldn't be who I am today! That maybe something else you would want to think about.
6/25/2005 2:46 pm
Oh, gosh! Now you got ME contemplating this! lol!|
And to think that I thought I had it all figured out. LOL!
Well, you know what? I am giving my brain a temporary retirement and maybe get some rest. lol! I had a long day yesterday.
7/10/2005 11:39 am
Having just read all your blogs for the first time, I felt the urge to share a thought i had, that may(or may not..lol)help you figure out all your elements. Sometimes it isn't about changing your circumstances, it's about changing how you see the circumstances you have. I don't know if that will help you figure out who you are or what you want but it might help you see your 'lonely' time in a different light. I stopped thinking being alone meant i was lonely, and learnt how to like myself, as a whole person. I don't need another person to make me complete,I already am. Falling in love would enhance who i already am, not complete me.|
Having read all that, I don't know if it will make any sense to you, but I don't know the words to explain it any other way. Look in your mirror and like who you see, it helps. Give me a shout if you fancy a chat anytime