30th Birthdays Suck.... and ? ? ? ? ?  

JoLeeS 40F
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3/21/2006 10:14 pm

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3/21/2006 11:44 pm

30th Birthdays Suck.... and ? ? ? ? ?

Here I am contemplating my impending birthday.... I keep telling myself it is just a number, it is just a number... It's not like I am adding two years at once or anything... It is just 1 year....! People are always telling me I look really young.... I feel young(most of the time anyway)... And I still want to have sex as much as I did when I was 18(and believe me that was A LOT)...lol So why, oh WHY do I all of a sudden have this dread, ths heavy heart about being a year older..... Is it becuase I am alone? Is it just an age thing? Is it maybe I am scared? Hell I dunno what it is.... Anybody else going thru this? Or has anyone gone thru this?? Could use a pep talk, advice...whatever...

meerkittykat 42F

3/21/2006 10:40 pm

Somewhere along the way, someone decided turning 30 was a big deal. I spent my first month of 30 being a morose Muthafarker, then when I realized I could still run, work, read, sleep, gab, shag, and mow the lawn exactly as I could a month earlier...I knew I'd be fine.

Age ain't nothin' but a number...

Treat yourself to something cool this weekend, cause you deserve it. It's one day you'll never get back, so enjoy it to it's fullest.

Cheers and happy birthday

sean19803000 36M

3/21/2006 10:45 pm

i have no pep talk, advice, so here's 'whatever'--->

every year that passes is another year further away from who you were and a year closer to the end....sad, huh? conversely, each year can help you understand yourself better and realize that you were better than the last, this is what you'll do differently, this is what you will do from now on, etc.

it's really no big deal to gain a year in age with each growing year. time is really this man-made object that is a countdown more than anything else, but it is only matched in progression. progression? why not digression? it just isn't, because you are better than before, wiser, stronger, more capable than anything else you haven't been able to handle before.

one year older? no joLeeS, one year stronger.

as humans, we have a hunger not to be alone, we urge to share our lives with one other (or, for some, more than a few.) there's nothing wrong with that. i have known quite a few people that felt so in the dumps when their 30th birthday rolled around, but then one or two years later they say their thirties felt the best, and it was just some late sleepless night haze rolling around in their bed wondering why they were turning 30 and being alone. i have a very close friend that kept telling me that she should have been married already, with kids, white picket fences, ball-games and barbeques, but in the end, she tells me awhile later that she never felt better or more free being in her thirties.

don't worry about it. live your life, take the serious things lightly and the light things serious, and you'll be fine.

i hope 'whatever' helps.


JoLeeS 40F

3/21/2006 11:00 pm

Meer and Sean... Very well put... Thank you so much!


3/21/2006 11:19 pm

Hey I am turning 36 in a month, I could be a grandma at anytime, and let me tell ya, I am more active then most girls in thier 20s. It IS just a number! I have found having an older lover(4 just makes me feel so young and beautiful! Go out, get your hair and nails done, do shit for yourself. Enjoy life! I'll be back for a pep talk when you are turnin 40...

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