Is it a Personality Change...or Did I Just Stop Giving a Shit?  

JarrodSparrow 33M
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10/18/2005 2:47 am

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Is it a Personality Change...or Did I Just Stop Giving a Shit?


Ok, so I used to be shy.

Really shy.

I used to be so shy that rather than talking to a girl, be it on the phone or in person, I would hand them a note.

I guess in some ways I am still like that...especially me being on AdultFriendFinder instead of out in the real world asking girls for their numbers and flirting.

I still admit that socially I'm not comfortable in large crowds...but in small groups, I love the limelight.

Playing the crowd, cracking jokes, or even just spouting knowledge about whatever subject we happen to be talking about...

The question is...does this occur over time, like a personality change, or do I just not care as much about what people think?

I'll fully admit that I still care about my appearance...I wouldn't stress about shaving and stuff like that if I didn't.

But I know I'm not fashionable...and quite frankly I don't care.

I also don't really worry too much about what people know about me...I'll pretty much say anything to anyone.

I guess I'm just tryin' to figure out what everyone else has seen or noticed about their personality over the years.

I'm very introspective, so I've kept an eye on my own personality...I like most of the changes...but I guess there's a lot to improve still.

Anyway, I'm done with all of this...especially since it's getting a little too "ME" in here.

Lata all,

Jarrod

Taedhe 106M

10/18/2005 5:52 pm

I think you are just getting more experience, more maturity, and 'growing up' inside. Those three traits seem to do that--along with a lot of other ones as well.
I wish I would have been a lot more assertive in my teens, twenties, and thirties than I have become in the last couple of years.
You sound as if you're gaining wisdom as well... and one of those pieces of wisdom is that you care about your appearance. That is VERY important, whether a guy's str8, bisexual, or gay.
A guy who cares about his appearance, finds clothes, colours, designs, etc. that accentuate his facial structure, body structure, skin and bony tones and colours. You've got that down.
I don't believe you're stressing on facial hair and other issues with respect to that... you just care enough about it to want to be neat, tidy, attractive, and such.
It's good to see a guy as young as yourself bravely letting the world know on here that these things are important to you. I was so introverted in high school that I couldn't get up in front of class to do an oral report. Now... I am not afraid to respectfully pursue that which is appealing to me. There's an old saying, "If you don't ask... how will they know?"
March on, buddy!

Ted


JarrodSparrow 33M

10/19/2005 2:33 am

Thanx for the comment...I've come a long way and I've got a long way to go still.

I'd like to say by my mid 20s I'll have it down, but who really knows?

J


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