Motivation for the Sometimes Weak of Heart...  

Iwakura16Eyes 37F
603 posts
7/14/2006 11:54 am

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Motivation for the Sometimes Weak of Heart...

you ever have dreams....?

I did. When I was a little girl, I used to play my concerti along with CD recordings of them played with orchestras. I did that LOTS.... I had this one recording that used to play along with--it was a live recording of Lalo's Symphonie Espagnole. It had thunderous applause at the end of the 5th movement.... I used to play along with that one a lot.... and I used to bow at the end... I used to get tears in my eyes the feelings were so powerful--I wanted to play solo with orchestras. now--I admit--it is through the later experiences that I find that fantasies and dreams like these are meant to sometimes stay that way.... when I actually got to play with orchestras.... it never delivered that feeling. It was always filled with WAY too much pressure. It's not that I wasn't talented--I used to be quite talented (I just prefer to be an academia snob )--it wasn't that I was scared of the audience, yanno? I am too much of a perfectionist and there is that musician's rule of 80-to-20... yanno? The fantasy in my lil head didn't add up... perhaps I added wrong--I always sucked at math

ARGH... fuck. the point is.... dreams...? yeah. worth keeping, but do they deliver...? I just wanted to know--cuz I got a new set of dreams... and I am watching Flashdance and working on my latest research project. I always want to seize the day... and I do. I am slowly becoming successful in my life and my work. I work at it.... I get there... (BTW--I'd be pissed if someone tried helping me along way too much, too... )

I'll be applying to graduate schools soon... keep yer mitts to yerself...

now if I only I could get this emptiness to go the fuck away....

no one will comment on this... they never do when I actually have something of substance to say...

rm_smosmof2 67M
3240 posts
7/14/2006 1:07 pm

I don't think you'd want to hear what I have to say about dreams....

Stick to reality, and doing what you can.

Dreams always disappoint, particularly when they are fulfilled.

buddhamike 105M
7006 posts
7/14/2006 1:57 pm

Because many here either aren't interested in anything substantive, or just don't understand what you're talking about. In the end, you have to write a blog for youself, like a diary. If you elicit some intelligent, comments that's a plus. It's just like the concert performance; you have to do it in large part for the joy of performing, or the stress of trying to meet the demands of the qudience will tear you up. (many of them don't really understand the fine points of what you are doing anyway) Likewise dancing. You have to do it for the joy of the dance, not the accolades of the audience.

I disagree with smosmof2. You have to have a dream, before you can have a dream come true! Go for the gold, while you can, so you don't spend your old age wishing you had at least tried.

ProtonicMan 47M

7/14/2006 2:59 pm

TJ not leaving a comment
(don't you just love self-fulfilling prophecies?)

chasingfun27 38M
1108 posts
7/14/2006 3:03 pm

I don't know about dreams, I work towards goals; but that's probably just a matter of definition.

Most people are afraid to comment on seriously-themed, rather personal posts. Not a critism, your post is your own and well worth reading, but it doesn't really invite comments. It's hard to really know what to say without knowing you.

Good luck anyway.

vrec_dawn 39M

7/14/2006 3:40 pm

I think we should all dream great big dreams and work towards them! Oh, sure, they're never going to be the same in reality as they are in our head. In our minds everything is perfect. Where as life rarely is. But that doesn't mean we can't still find joy there, and sometimes it's even the imperfections that make it more interesting and in the end enjoyable.

As for the emptiness, well, that's probably more a matter of what's inside than what's outside. Sometimes the difference is simply a change of perspective. To steal a line: It's not having what you want. It's wanting what you've got.

WayneMarie4girl 45M/38F

7/14/2006 4:33 pm

Both standing up and giving you a standing ovation.

Wordsmith2004 36M
7233 posts
7/16/2006 5:35 pm

it was a live recording of Lalo's Symphonie Espagnole. It had thunderous applause at the end of the 5th movement.... I used to play along with that one a lot.... and I used to bow at the end...

Doooork lol

Yaknow, you can accomplish the same effect by turning the cable off on your TV and turning it to a channel that has nothing on but static and then turn the volume WAAAY up...and then MUTE that bad boy until you get to a pertninet part in your piece...of....whatever... daaaa... nowyou have CONTINOUS fake applause!

Your welcome sweetie

How did I learn this very very useful tit-bit of info? from years hanging out with a hobo...err...I mean best friend who had a crapper for a TV...and so he'd be like...

"Dude dude your Jesse Jackson speech!!"

and I'd be like, "Gotta dollar?"

And he'd be like "no but I got yo' Momma on my jock"

and thus we'd "yo Momma" back and forth until he finally begged me to do it (the impression...perv!!) in his hopeless state of boredom...

and thus the right reverend did UNITE da peoples ta'getttthaaa!...etcy etcy..

Bored hick chilens...we were....what can I say?

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righteous1076 40M

7/16/2006 8:58 pm

the problem isn't do dreams come true. they do. and it isn't that they don't live up to what you have them built up to in your head, because they sometimes far exceed expectations. the problem is when your dream is taken away and you have to live with the memories. that, my young bene gesserit is the true mind killer.

FunSeekerInTheSu 39M

7/17/2006 8:38 pm

Absolutely...Dreams are real. Even if only in the mind for starters. Imagine a world without imagination huh (????!) Very, Very scary indeed.

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