Temptations  

HotTXpussy4U 48F
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6/8/2006 7:34 pm

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6/11/2006 7:47 pm

Temptations


Hello from North Carolina! I do have to say this - - the weather is much better here than home in Texas right now...I'm grateful!!

Less than a few hours after arrivig on Sunday, I had my first new Carolina Panthers item. It's even means more because it was given to me. In my line of work...safety is everything. So I have the awful task of having to wear steel toe boots, hard hats and the like. Ever since the my first on-site project 5 years ago..I've detested the hard hat! I don't look good in them, they mess up my hair and there is nothing girly about them. I may change my outlook after my new gift. When the PM came to pick me up and take me to the jobsite...there in the seat was my NEW hard hat. All decked out in Carolina Panthers!! I JUST love it.... I might even wear it someday But to know someone took the time to make me happy...it just makes the heart fill with joy.

I've worked with some of these guys for years. There is lots of bickering, laughter, flirting and the like. Most are married and very unattainable. But when you live with these guys on the road for months and months, they are more than just co-workers. They become family. They are the male presence in my life and I the woman in theirs. Like they say...they see me more than they see their own wives and girlfriends. Those ladies are automatically jealous of me..though I've met very few of them. There are a lot of assumptions about what goes on when we are out on the road...but 99% of the time, they are unjustified.

Sure, I know what these guys do - - and what they do when they are not at home, that's their own business. They have to live with it, and far be it for me to be their mother. They are grown men. What goes on when on the road, stays on the road - - it's the unspoken rule.

I have been tempted. Like I said, I know some of the guys better than their wives know them. And over the years there have been times I might not have used the best judgement. I don't have anyone to answer too, they do. And there is something comforting about knowing that there are no expectations. We don't want to date, so what happens is what happens. I live with a clearer mind than they do -- I'm single and only live with the fact that I was apart of their deceipt. And I live with that, and do not live my life worrying about regrets.

As strong as I am in my life, I'm weak when it comes to men. With the right amount of flirting and the sometimes alcohol involved....I know I don't make it easy on the guys to not be tempted. And if it's the right guy....I won't say no. Sometimes it has to be them that draws the line that shouldn't be crossed. And I have the utmost respect for those that do! I'm use to getting what I want...so to be told "no" - - damn, I think it makes me want them even more. But I'm cool with "no"...even if that means my feeling of being "lonely" won't go away.

So, I'm Tempted...by the man who gave me my new hardhat. I made my "move" and he was the bigger person. And we are totally cool with that. But I'm going to have to watch myself the next time I am out with the guys...Cuz if he was to make the "move", I might not be as strong as he was. And I think we both would have regrets if something ever happened. He's one of my best friends..and it's not worth messing that up.

(sigh) but what a cutie he is!

Now I sit in my hotel room - - alone...again.

Guess that's how it should be.

docdirk 47M

6/8/2006 7:44 pm

Be back in a sec... I'm off to buy a Jake Delhomme jersey and a six-pack!

Don't be too hard on yourself. As you said; it is they who have the most on the line. You are answerable to only yourself. They have the added pressure of being responsible for others. Of course, if I were on the road with you for any length of time, I'm certain "NO" would very quickly exit my vocabulary!!!

Be safe.

Ah, Its you again, Your Angel Feathers and your Blood Stains...


HotTXpussy4U replies on 6/8/2006 8:32 pm:
Hmmm... I was just adding my Barter to MzHuny's barting game.... And now you offer up a Jake jersey??? Well, I can dream about it. And just imagine how good I would look in it!!!!

Thanks for the words of encouragement....Luckily for me, in 5 years I've only been tempted just a few times...so my track record is not too bad.

And I wouldn't want you to say "no"... {=}

gnr8nrg 45M

6/8/2006 8:55 pm

HI


HotTXpussy4U replies on 6/11/2006 7:48 pm:
As much as I loved the pic of you and the squirrels - - this whole incognito thing - - - major turn-on!!! {=}

rm_hasso352002 49M
11 posts
6/9/2006 7:27 am

hmmmmmmmm...yes, what would we be without those temptations...perhaps just robots...glad you have them

hugs and kisses{=}


HotTXpussy4U replies on 6/11/2006 7:49 pm:
The temptations make things interesting.... but still alone!!

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