Day before D-Day  

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12/2/2005 12:45 pm

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Day before D-Day

Well blog - this is it. Within a few minutes I will be flying home - to get it done. I sit here before I shut down my computer (as I would never go anywhere without my laptop) and think "holy shit"...amazing how things can change in just a 24 hour period. Today I am married, tomorrow I am seperated and in 60 days I will be divorced. The last few months seem like a blur - - and I wonder "WTF". I know this is the right thing to do - and will move I always do.

Had a visit with a friend a bit ago - he asked me "with all this happening, what are your expectations of the future?". What a loaded question that is. He talked about how I am in my professional life - which I exceed all my expectations in that area. And he talked about how those same high expectations rolling over into my personal life. Well he has that right - I have high expectations of everyone. I expect them all to be good, understanding, goal-oriented, have their own life and want what everyone wants - just to find the right person. I see so many people in relationships where they are not "satisfied" but they stay in them. That I just don't get. If your not happy - get the F out. If you can't talk to your partner - why are they your partner? I know I don't want to be someone's entire world, I just want to be somewhere at the top of the list. Simple fact is - I want to be with someone who wants to be with me, not needs to be with me. I don't know - is there really a difference?

So my expectations of the personal me - - just let things be... Be with family - cherish the times. Be with friends - they love you no matter what. Be with men - who appreciate a woman with goals and a brain.... and who can satisfy the hunger that sometimes hits. Be truthful and honest with myself....and don't settle.

I expect to be that is the kind of person that I am

Plano69 54M

12/3/2005 12:16 am

You make a lot of sense... Thanks. I may have to just follow suit.

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