Bruised Ego Continued....................  

HotLilSouthAngel 47F
232 posts
11/10/2005 8:56 pm

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Bruised Ego Continued....................

Welcome My Fellow Bloggers,

The ending to my previous blog is one in which I must express so I can be content. My frustrations are ceasing and hopefully I can become my normal stress free self. I sat, I pondered, I allowed my mind to wander. I contemplated the possibilites and endings to my dilema. What should I do? How should I handle this young cocky individual? Why cant we just be professionals? Finally I came to a conclsuion. An ending in which I could be satisfied. I knew excatly what I needed to do and I took the situation by the horns. (No pun intended)

I arose as normal. Showered, dressed in my best dominating professional attire. Scurried to work and began the day. First I had to have some caffeine. I dont drink coffee but knew we had hot tea on hand. While preparing the rtea, "He" came in the lounge. Dressed as any man wanting to profess his dominance would dress. A business suite, navy, white shirt, tie, pressed pants, hair styled in a perfected manner and shoes shined. I spoke in my best southern draaawwwwwllll, smiled and blinked my eyelashes, as any young lady would. Excused myself and sashied out of the lounge in complete control. I knew I had him. The power of the situation drove me, in fact it consumed me.

Everyone began to arrive for our week long meeting. (The week long meeting I have dreaded for months.) As meeting time drew was drawing near, my assistant provided me with the agenda, prepared the projector, pointer, and conference room. I knew I was prepared. I promptly started the meeting and positioned myself in professional stance. I Gave my opening thoughts for the day as we passed out the days agenda for viewing. I luringly captured his eyecontact and genetly handed him his agenda and reports for the day. My hand gliding across his opened, receivng hand. I had everyones attention and I admit..............I loved it. The meeting began and we all mentally started our day. Debating as upper management generally does. They all gave their positions on the issues at hand, all guarding their communities and departments. After a couple hours of intense debates, I determined a break was necessary. Its what I had prepared to do. Everyone ran for their cell phones or laptops. Seeking phone messages, returning calls or simply checking in for the day with their assigned communities. I asked "him" if I could have a moment of his time. "He" agreed and we stepped aside for privacy. Keeping eye contact, I began the discussion with feminine posterity. Determined to be myself, not change one thing in regards to who I am, I expressed to him my respect for his opinion. I further expressed that I was taught opinions are like a**holes, some are bigger than others. After all, isnt everyone unique in some fashion. Further I professed to him my desire to remain as I am. Slowly explaining I like who I am. I again respectfully acknowledged his opinion.

After a carefully selected choice of words to express that I would not change myself, he found himself speechless. My eyecontact intense and my body language spoke volumes. He coward as a scolded pup would coware. I knew I had him. I ran my finger around my low cut blouse, exposing my new Victorias Secret bra. (I had been dying to wear it). What perfect timing, his eyes dropped and I again, left him hanging. I spoke, to let him know the meeting was beginning and I felt we should move into the conference room so we could finish our morning session, dismissing him for his remaining time of the break. I once again began our meeting and handled myself in the same manner I normally would..........professional, intellectual and determined to fulfill my job duties.

I admit, I did give considerable consideration to his vocalized opinion. After all, would I not be hypocritical to not evaluate constructive critism. (If it can be termed as constructive.) However, as with everyone, we are what we are, creatures developing in an ever changing environment (the world). Some of us develop and form our being from lifes lessons, esperiences, environments and relationships. What am I? Who am I? All considerations evaluated, and catagorized, i determined the following:

~ I am a woman
~ I am human
~ I am seasoned by life
~ I still seek perfection
~ I seek what every human seeks, love, peace, happiness, a companion to fill the lonely moments in life, and success in all endevors life brings to me for the undertaking

The self evalution was good for my soul, but as with most things, there will be no change. He flew back today. My headache disappeared. My body feels as if an elephant has been lifted off of it.

I contiue in my pursuit of Uptopia, the never ending search.

Keep it bent south,

HotLilAngel


HotSparks81 53M/52F

11/11/2005 8:14 pm

All I can say is you are a strong professional woman that knows just how to make your point without losing your positive attitude.

Keep it up Sweetie


rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
11/12/2005 4:55 am

Hi Angel,

I'm glad he is out of your life. Don't ever let him back into your pysche.

At least he gave you the gift of personal reflection.

Don't except criticism from individuals with dubious motives. Get your constructive criticism from people you respect and/or trust.

Best wishes on finding Utopia. I'd help you search but I'm too busy hunting for El Dorado. Actually though don't you want Hertopia or is that where I'm supposed to look to find my true love. Damn now I'm all confused. Forget it I think I'll just invite some people over and find Beertopia instead.

Always,
Luke


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


rm_luke69iner 48M
3275 posts
11/12/2005 10:36 am

Lil are you sure you were reading my blog? Even if undeserved I value such a compliment coming from you Angel.

I'm an ACC fan. A lot of times it depends on who has the best chance for a good season.


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


zorgnot2 60M

11/12/2005 10:37 am

Very intelligent and what's more important...smart.
Namaste


RicinBlankDoser 51M

11/14/2005 7:07 pm

Angel,

high self esteem,confidence and intelligence are traits that many people in the world don't have and wish they did.
don't question them,embrace them.
i think you handled the situation with dignity and grace by facing it head on,on your own terms and the result was the individual with low self esteem crawling back under his rock.

i'll leave you with a snippet from a favorite blues tune of mine that kind of echoes "noonerboy"'s Shakespeare theory in an updated version:

"when you look in the mirror,do you like what you see?
does the person lookin' back at you start running from the heat?
do you trust in yourself with every move you make?
are you one that likes to give,or one that likes to take?

live today likes it's your last one,live tomorrow like it's your first,
don't ever let your problems bring out your worst,
don't ever take your mind off of whatever is your goal,
BE TRUE TO YOURSELF AND FOLLOW YOUR SOUL!!!"

take care,
slide


rm_dammygirl 53F
101 posts
11/16/2005 7:19 pm

hahaha good for you girl! ^5!!



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