Gates Closed  

HeatherCat 37F
67 posts
5/5/2005 11:50 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Gates Closed

That's it. This is how it ends. End of the line. The legs will not open for that ever again. After the last two days of doctor appointments and extremely painful (not to mention embarrassing) tests I've decided to close the area for good, even to me. That area is never going to be touched in a sexual way again. Let them take out everything. I'm not using it anyway. Maybe they can put in something useful. A clock radio, I don't know. I don't care. Get rid of it all and throw me into early menopause. Let me get that over with now, instead of when I'm older. Whatever. I won't miss it. Good riddance.

Now excuse me while I go get drunk and cry.

rm_4nik8_4u 61M
2501 posts
5/5/2005 2:03 pm

NEVER say never! I'm sorry you had to go through those things, they can be painful and definately embarassing. For us men we have to do the prostate exam thing where they shove their finger/s up your ass and feel around. I had a doctor who had fingers that were an inch thick, as for his technique...let's just say he's divorced and I know why! Now I have a woman DR. and she is SMOOTH when she puts her finger in my ass. What a contrast! Please leave the key to the gate with someone, there should always be a gate keeper. BTW, very nice nipple.

pussyeaterxxx2 37M
25 posts
5/5/2005 2:10 pm

Sounds like you could use a fifth of j.d. And a soft shoulder to cry on wish i could help ya out... Hope you feel better soon

rm_4nik8_4u 61M
2501 posts
5/6/2005 6:58 am

OK, There's obviously things that you're not telling us and that's ok. But there is nothing I can say, do, or even understand without knowing everything. I'm not a psychologist or social worker. But I definately think things are deeper than I'm reading. Feel free to tell me whatever if you feel the need.

HeatherCat 37F
15 posts
5/6/2005 11:31 am

Things are always much deeper than we let show. We have to put on a brave face in public. We don't want anyone to know how much we're hurting. How messed up we are. At least that's how it is for me. That's probably why I'm on here. I can cry and scream all I want about what life is doing to me and it's anonymous. My friends, family and co-workers will never know. I'd die if they knew everything. I couldn't handle it. I'm not that strong. Not anymore. Once upon a time..... sigh. It's all too much now and I'm tired of fighting. It seems pointless now. The damage is done and it can't be reversed. There's no going back. Thank you for offering to help... I know that people care. I just think I'm beyond that. I appreciate the concern though.

NightOfPassion2 58M

5/11/2005 12:28 pm

Heres another vote of concern. And yes writing your thoughs, feelings will help....has me. Just from reading your post I see a person who cares...and the world needs more...a lot more.

Remeber even rainbows have some blue in them.........


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