Do You Think............  

HeartlessBitch69 46F
6876 posts
6/1/2006 11:35 am

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6/4/2006 2:53 pm

Do You Think............

I just woke up one day and thought to my self "HHHMMMM I think I want me some Strange"

(To get some STRANGE means, to get something other then what you are used to sexually)

It was a bunch of events that lead me to where I am today.

For 5 years it was ONE man and ONE man only. I took care of his every need, DAILY!

My husband used to brag he was the only husband he knew that after the first year of marriage I was still fucking him like when we first met! Sometimes two or three times a day. I cook, I cleaned, I worked, I went to school, I have kids to take care of, I waited on him hand and foot. He never and I mean NEVER needed for anything!

UNTIL NOW.........

And what did he do to deserve this? He broke me! One day inbetween my double shifts I found an e-mail from a girl about how much she liked him coming over to her house and if he wanted to come back wshe would be alone.
And found one he had wrote to a girl stating, "he is still lookin for a good woman to settle down with and have children with."
What do you think that did to me being a faithful and devoted wife for 5 years?

I started looking at him like I did my first husband, (the cheater and the beater)

But the feelings I had for him before he fucked around, the feelings I had that drove me to do everything for him to make him happy, are still here. Just little memories, tattered, laying in my heart.

So you see, I didn't just wake up one morning and think "I wanna get fucked!" And yes, if things in my life go the way I want or think they will, He will have his good woman to settle down with and have children, but it won't be me. I will be gone!


firestarter665 42M/39F

6/1/2006 3:59 pm

Everyone has thier own story about why they are here. Some are perfectly legit and some are just plain stupid. I don't think that you owed anyone an explanation, but thanks for sharing your story.

reverend21 49M
1913 posts
6/1/2006 8:05 pm

HMMMMMMMMMMM, everyday I check the blogs and do my readin' -n- 'riten' thang I see the two pretty blue eyes staring at me from the slots, tonight I figured 'what the Hell', and ended up here. This story sunds all too familiar, except it was her writing an old boyfried telling him that he wanted him to come get her and take her and my son away.

blueguy1051 60M

6/1/2006 8:32 pm

I'm sorry. Everyone deserves respect. Good luck.

timberwolf6972 44M

6/1/2006 8:35 pm

Hi you sexy fucker! I'm back! I understand where you are coming from cause I went through a similar situation back when I used to be married. Things like can make you a very bitter person. I once loved my wife more than life itseld but after she ripped my heart out I went into a deep depression. And then I fucked every single one of her dearest female friends. I though I was paying her back with interest for hurting me but actually all I did was hurt myself cause now I had lowered myself to her level. I almost killed a man one time cause of my wife's infidelity. I found out about what they were doing while I was at work and I all but lost my mind. All I could think of at the time was that I wanted blood for this. I grabbed my pistol(Ruger Blackhawk .41 Magnum) and walked up in the guy's house at about 2am one morning. I went back in his bedroom, turned the light on, cocked the hammer back and placed the barrel between his eyes. Needless to say he woke up scared out of his mind. I commenced to raising holy hell, he begged for his life and cried like a baby. The only thing that stopped his brains from being plastered to the walls was the fact that he was my 27 yr. old little brother. If he was not my mother and father's son then he would be dead and buried now and I would be a guest of the state as we speak. I was not only hurt and pissed off but I was also sickened by the fact that my wife and my children's uncle were fucking. The best thing that you can do sweetie is make peace with the stuff that has happened to you and just dump the hubby if you need to. Otherwise you might find yourself in a position like I was in and pull the trigger. The only way that you will ever find peace is to let all that past stuff go and move on. It will eat you up if you don't. Sorry about writing a book in your blog but this post just struck a cord with me.

skyking412004 53M
5363 posts
6/1/2006 8:38 pm

_____While I was getting what little hair i have left cut the other day, I said to the woman who was cutting my hair..."The woman who I want is the one, who when I look into her eyes, I can see forever." Debbie (That's her name.) almost laughed. I don't think I'm dreaming an impossible dream. I had it once. Forever was an awfully short time.

HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/1/2006 8:54 pm

skyking412004--I want to believe in forever! I really do!

timberwolf6972--When I found out he cheated, I just went numb! No feelings, none! I never even cried! I just stopped!

blueguy1051--You get respect if you give it!

reverend21--It happens to the best of us!

firestarter665--I know everyone has a story, and most sound the same, such is life!

HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/1/2006 9:22 pm

mzhunyhole--Well TY g/f

rm_BigDnLady 43M/41F
1140 posts
6/1/2006 10:09 pm

Totally been there!! I don't even know what to really say, because there really isn't anything to say except that I am sorry that you were hurt!! Some guys just don't know how good they have it rather "had it" !! Totally his loss!!!



lifeisablast333 54M

6/1/2006 10:22 pm

Bad shit happens to good folk. Sorry it all went to hell for you, I have been there, just don't be rash.

But if'n you decide to leave, go see a pro, A lawyer that only does divorce, just for the rules, you can not win, unless you know how to play, and just what the rules are.

Or play together as a couple....just a thought, it works for some people, but you have to want to, for it to work, and it will not fix what was broken.

But good luck to you......the Redneck

HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/1/2006 11:11 pm

lifeisablast333--If and when I do leave I am leaving everything behind, I want nothing!

MariGrrl--I have alot of love, just not from the one I am married to.

BigDnLady--I keep hearing that song "don't know what ya got til it's gone"

(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)

6/2/2006 12:53 am

Go when your ready to. I wish I could take the pain away for you....Ready


HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/2/2006 1:23 am

readytolay_3--Well my dear, the way I feel right now at this moment, all I can say is......FUCK IT!

warmbttm61 55M

6/2/2006 3:37 pm

Hey there sweetness. I will gladly help you in being more happy but I never heard back this week on my offer for you.


HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/3/2006 10:36 am

warmbttm61--I never got mail from you this week!

LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
6/4/2006 12:04 am sorry you had to go through that...

HeartlessBitch69 46F

6/4/2006 2:24 am

LustyTaurus--Baby, what doesn't kill ya makes you stronger!

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