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Lips that touch Eelpout shall never touch...
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Feb 17, 2012 6:40 pm
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A glass of wine.
Ran a tub, soaked in the whirlpool half an hour.
Masturbated, had a delicious orgasm.
Soaked another half hour.
Kicked back in bed with another glass of wine.
Smoked a bowl.
Opened up my mail on the iPad.
The old boyfriend sent me a picture of himself, kissing the 7 pound eelpout he caught during the tournament. Said something about "tradition".
I don't even know what to say about that.
Friend Doe? You were more right than you can imagine.
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Eelpout
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Feb 16, 2012 6:31 am
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Anyone ever seen an eelpout? I hadn't, until I looked it up. I guess it's the only freshwater Cod we have. Anyhow, there is an Eelpout Festival going on up north in Walker, MN...hoo boy, do those guys know how to have fun, eh?
The old boyfriend is going. I'm dogsitting again for a couple days, he should be back on Saturday. Since he's leaving today, I came up here last night and sitting at his computer looking out the window upstairs, the view is so peaceful this morning. Pond in the back yard, sun hitting the ice just so...I thought I saw a beaver out there, but it turned out to be 2 crows playing on the ice near the muskrat den opening.
I've gotten instructions about how to take care of my dog again. She doesn't just eat dogfood anymore, she gets a little gourmet treat - he thinks she needs some vegetables. He mixes broccoli, carrots and green beans into her dogfood. I've watched her gingerly pick the beans out and tuck them under the plate just like a little kid but she does seem to like the broccoli and carrots - except when you go to clean up after her outside, there the carrots are, imbedded, not digested. I tried to tell him if he wants to give them to her, he should cook them and mash them a bit, not give them to her raw. When I do the feeding, she gets dogfood and an extra scoop in the morning. If a mini-dachshund can look grateful, I think she does.
But yay for me...the bathtub sent me subliminal messages all day yesterday and since my back is still stiff from sitting on that stupid bench, I asked him to fill it for me last night before I got there. And even though I sleep upstairs here, his snoring down there didn't phase me a bit, nodded right off and slept until about 4 this morning. I don't whine about it...I might have been told a time or two that a snort escapes my lips at night too. Earplugs are a gift, and when my boss saw me sticking a pair in my bag and said they were for "work use", I replied that getting a good night's sleep is conducive to me coming to work; so there.
I hope we continue to get along even though our relationship is much, much different these days. My pooch is aging, my plants love his house better than mine and quite honestly, a day or two away from my adult children is more than fine with me.
Go Eelpout!
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The best friends
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Feb 15, 2012 7:21 am
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I thought I was going to have a crappy day yesterday. The old boyfriend had asked if he could take me out for Valentine's day dinner and since we still get along fine, I accepted. The night before, he called to ask when he could pick me up since I work until 8pm, thinking maybe I could take off a little early. When I started to say,"I'm going to be late for work so I'm not sure what time I can get out of there yet," he interrupted me at "work" and rudely said, "no, wait, just give me a time!" as if he couldn't be bothered listening to 13 more words. I was a bit taken aback and also immediately irked. I told him I didn't know and I'd call him back, and hung up on him. Also feeling like "how does never again sound?"
Well, he called me back and apologized later but I still wasn't feeling like going much. Then yesterday when I got out of the shower, a man I've been lovers with for years and years (long distance) called and said, "happy Valentines day, baby". Even though we don't see much of each other, we talk a few times a week and have for years...I believe he might just be my very best friend as well as being attentive to detail. It usually makes my day to talk to him and I felt better.
Then I went to court and sat on a hard bench for two and a half hours waiting for my troubled child to be brought in. My back was killing me...I've had back surgery and sitting, especially on something hard is tough for me. My mood was slipping but all in all, things are moving forward in her life and the results were a step in the right direction. Then came the drive to work, late by 4 hours, but I had to go, had work that had to be done. Got there and went down to check my mail in the box section and found a card from another dear friend. Mood went up a notch.
Got my work done, called the old boyfriend to come after me. Got to the restaurant, had a wonderful dinner, talked a bit and he took me back to work to get my car. On the way home another friend called me and we had a nice conversation. Mood went back up again.
As my profile says...lovers come and go, but friends, true friends, will always be there for you. It makes me realize who is important to me, and those friends are. I hope I express my love for them adequately...sometimes my life doesn't seem worth having, but it is. It's the only one I have and I appreciate those people in it.
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Retirement
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Feb 13, 2012 8:51 pm
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One of the managers I work with is retiring the end of April. Another one is going this summer. Both of them have been two of the best people I've ever worked for; treated me with respect, compassion and understanding. The one I work for has bent over backwards to accommodate my needs and I am going to sincerely miss him. The other one has become a good friend and I'm going to miss seeing him every day, but I know I'll see him once in a while and we'll keep in touch via email and the stupid online games we play.
That's one of the hazards of staying at a job for this long. Nobody quits at the Post Office...we just get old and retire. In fact, in my nearly 28 years there, I've only known 3 people who just outright quit. I know some who ought to quit for as often as they come to work, and some who got fired, but for the most part, the Post Office is a career job. We are an aging workforce too. I was looking at the seniority roster the other day and we have not hired any clerks since 2001. Mail handlers, yes; clerks, no. I took a look at the folks sitting in the break room tonight too...majority of them about my age.
Although I love my job, love what I do and enjoy a great portion of the people I work with, I'll be eligible to retire in 2 and a half years and I'm starting to think about it. A lot. I just started buying my service time back so I can add 4 years to my 30 when I get there but now with my managers and friends going I'm getting the itch. The Post Office has offered incentives to people in the last couple of years trying to get them to go as soon as they're eligible but of course, some will hold out. We have an 82 year old supervisor in maintenance who started the year before I was born. And to tell the truth, he looks better than some 60 year olds and knows twice as much as anyone there. I asked him why he doesn't retire and he just laughs...and he works the midnight shift. He also works...he doesn't just take up space. He helped me find stuff on my last inventory and I tell you, I had to hustle to keep up with him.
I'm grateful to have a job in this day and age, especially a good job that pays me a living wage with benefits I can count on. I know a lot of people without that and I hope I never become complacent enough to take it for granted.
Write someone a letter, it might just make someone's day.
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Zero
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Feb 11, 2012 1:48 pm
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That was the temperature when I looked on the deck this morning. Up until a few days ago, I was wondering if winter was going to come this year. Of course, when it dips down below freezing in November we all get excited about it, stupidly excited some of us, but after that first cold snap and a few flurries, winter kind of petered out until a couple of days ago. Two or three weeks ago, it hit 50* and I thought the world had flipped. That just doesn't happen in Minnesota in January.
Yesterday on my way to work, the guy on the radio was saying Hennepin county had banned all cars and trucks from the lakes. Not snowmobiles, but anything heavier. We've had a handful of deaths so far this winter from idiots driving out there. I call them idiots because anyone with a lick of sense would realize the weather hasn't been cold enough to make thick ice. A friend of my daughter had a buddy go through the ice on a snowmobile just a few weeks ago, killed him of course. Young kid too, early 20s.
With the ban on cars and trucks though, some folks are not going to be able to get their fish houses off the lakes, and they were urged to call the DNR to figure out an alternative. I have no doubt that March is going to be a bitch up here. My guess is that we won't get any amount of snow until the first of March, no matter what the Old Farmers Almanac says and it will be the end of April before it melts and starts warming up.
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Oh Lonesome Me
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Feb 7, 2012 8:39 pm
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As much as I say I want to live alone, when I come home to an empty house I almost immediately text one of the adult kids who live here and ask if they're coming home tonight.
As much as I say I want to live alone, I like it when the dog leaps up and kisses my face when I walk in the door (he's tall on his hind legs, and I'm short).
As much as I say I want to live alone, I never have. Never. Is that strange? I went from home to Basic Training, to Tech School, to the Barracks, to a roommate, to marriage and children.
As much as I say I want to live alone, I'm not doing much in the way of getting to that point. I envy people who live alone, do their own thing, eat when they want to, go to bed without thinking about who's still up...but I don't mind making a whole pot of coffee in the morning instead of just a cup for me. I wonder if there is a happy medium, where we could all stay together but have some separate space. My brother told me in South America where his wife is from, it's not unusual for all children to live at home until they're married, and then it's not even that unusual for that spouse to just move in.
That's not my family though. I don't think.
I feel like I'm getting ready to run away from home again, only I really don't have anywhere to go. I'm lonesome.
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Teenager Cat
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Feb 1, 2012 6:25 am
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Well, he's still on the loose. I for one, am not worried about him. It's the daughter who neglected him in the first place who is feeling guilty and lonely in a new place. Personally, I think he'll show up. I'm going to drive over there to that open shed this morning and see if they won't come pouring out when they hear the can of cat food being opened. When I went yesterday, just in the alley alone were 6 adult cats. One looked very much like him but turned out not to be. I hope that's not the one the woman called about...
No, it's the constant text messages and phone calls from the daughter that are driving me nuts. Damn cat is probably under someone's porch snickering at me while I'm feeding strays in the alley.
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Lost cat
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Jan 31, 2012 6:59 am
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Dammit...my daughter is up north for a year and I said I would keep her cat for her. Secretly, I was going to get him neutered as soon as she left because he's hell to keep in the house otherwise. She just hasn't done it because of lack of funds and foresight. Damn cat snuck out four nights ago. She put posters up all over before she left and some lady called me last night, says he's been coming to her porch to eat the food she leaves for strays. I went over there last night on my way home, met the woman and she showed me a shed where she says all manner of cats and kittens live. I'm on it...going over there this morning to see if I can coax him out and bring his teenaged ass home. He is only 4 blocks from my house...makes me wonder if he is indeed not smart enough to find his way home or if he wants to live the vagabond life of King Cat in the shed. He is a big cat...but he needs to bring his butt back so I don't have to listen to daughter whine for the next year.
Kids...
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Does not wanting to Scroll make me impatient?
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Jan 29, 2012 3:08 pm
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This is my 4th blog in the last several years and as each time has progressed, I've noticed more and more the use of links at the front of the blog to older posts, things "worth" reading again. And I confess, I've clicked on my share of them once I've gotten to know a blogger or at least become a watcher. And the guestbook thing, that's another whole entry. And the Private Messages entry.
I've got something on my Blogland Wishlist...put your current post at the TOP and the other stuff second. Or a link to the index instead of the whole index. You guys are obviously talented in the Blogging world and maybe the index is the way to go...but I make my decision whether to continue to read a person on the first recent page they wrote.
Just thinking.
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Lazy Saturday
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Jan 28, 2012 8:32 am
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I don't think I'm going to do anything today. Maybe rummage through the pile in the basement if I can stand the cold, see if there's anything in it worth saving and if so, pack it. Otherwise I'm staying in the house, going to cook a turkey so there are meal fixings all week.
I'm wrapping my mind around getting out of this house finally. Taking just the things I love - no more hauling crap around because I "might" use it someday. My somedays are numbered at this point in my life and I'm simply tired of caring for things I no longer think are important. Just as an example - I am 54 1/2 years old. I went to Germany on a TDY when I was in the Air Force when I was 20. I bought some German beer glasses while I was there, boxed them up and have been toting that box around for 34 years. I have never opened that box. I know what's inside, but I have never opened that box. I always thought I'd put them on a shelf, a china cabinet or something like that...but I have never opened the box. Always afraid to put them out lest a cat jump on the shelf and knock things over, kids use them for milk and they get left under a bed or broken...so they stay in the box. I have a lot of things like that. 3 sets of china - my own, my mom's and my grandma's...do I use any of them? No, well, just for special occasions and then I use my own because I'm afraid the older ones will get broken. Do I need them? No, but I can't get rid of them either.
I've become better at packratting behavior but I still have issues with it. I guess I could have worse habits...but I knew I was in trouble when I caught myself winding up the string off a bag of water softener salt...that's not even good string. I no longer have a junk drawer in the kitchen, which is a good thing, but I'm sure I can still find junk out there.
Maybe I'll just throw something away today.
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I mighta been better off before...
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Jan 27, 2012 8:47 pm
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This kind of made me laugh when I thought about it. The old bf wants to take off again this week, go to Wisconsin or some shit, drive around the backroads, sleep at Motel 6's..."get away". Get away from what I think...he's retired for Pete's sake. I might bring the pooch back to my house this time if he does.
But anyway, I was thinking, when he used to want to get away, he'd say, "Can you get off and go with me?" Now I babysit the dog while he goes and we're both ok with that. Funny stuff, relationships that deteriorate but still connect in other ways.
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Augie Doglet
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Jan 19, 2012 7:00 am
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I'm staying at the old boyfriend's house this week while he roams Las Vegas. A friend of his invited him out with another guy and he decided to get out of Minnesota. When I moved out last year it would have been a terrible thing to take my dog away from him, as well as it being better for her too. They bonded in a funny way, but truly, they're good for each other. She's taught him a lot about unconditional love. So, I'm here taking care of her while he's gone. Mini-dachshund, a sweetheart of a dog. She belonged to my mom originally, but my mom died when she was just a pup, 9 months old. My sister was going to find her a home but I decided to take her home with me instead. She's almost 11 years old now.
Perks for me include a house to myself for a week, no adult children in this one. The double whirlpool tub every night, even if I have to fill it myself (he used to fill it halfway for me because it holds more water than the hot water tank, then I'd fill it when I got home from work)...that's something I miss at my house. The fireplace, something I don't have at my house either. Great view out the atrium window downstairs, while drinking coffee next to the fireplace. I do kind of miss living here, but not so much I'd move back in. It's the house I miss...not the conditions for living here.
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Free Membership?
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Jan 17, 2012 9:26 am
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Got an email from Adult FriendFinder saying if I created an "Icebreaker" I would get a free silver membership in return!
Seriously, did they downgrade the silver membership? I regret to tell all you wonderful men that it's women only who get this...seems very unfair and biased but I'm taking it anyway, greedy mama that I am...
I am always surprised at the lengths a company will go to to retain or gain new customers...has the female membership declined? If all you have to do is create an icebreaker - and sincerely, mine was nothing special or endearing or even anything that would entice a man to view my profile, but there you go - Silver...nearly as precious as gold, but not quite.
I still think they must have downgraded the perks in order to give them away. Won't all women take advantage of that? Won't this site go broke? Gee...why not just give free memberships to women from the get go - we're the all important, sparkly things all you folks out there are seeking anyway, right?
Oh...stop me before I get a big head...someone stop me!!
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