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Originally aired August 13, 2005 on my now-defunct blog, Life With Carry-Ons.
Dammit. Told myself I was going to be very careful, not be fooled again. Said to myself, “No more ‒ I am going to check things out completely this time.”
I mean, I’m open-minded; I don’t judge people. I understand not everyone is here for the same reasons. But I have personal standards.
We’ve been exchanging emails for weeks, and I thought she was being a little evasive. Okay, the signs were there ‒ the ‘I’d rather not say’ on her marital status, the unpredictable and sporadic nature of her contacts ‒ I should have probably guessed.
But last night we finally met. I felt the connection ‒ we clicked -everything seemed so right. We talked over margaritas, and I could feel her warming to me. And me to her. It was exactly what I had hoped.
When we were ready to go, I asked if her place was safe. She hesitated, then said “yes.” It was only a few blocks away, so we left our cars at the restaurant and walked over. I thought it strange that she wasn’t a little more cautious on the approach to the house, but it was her neighborhood so I dismissed the warning thoughts.
We went inside, and she put on a Chris Botie CD. She held my hand and pulled me back to the bedroom.
We were pretty well into things when she held her hand up to my mouth. I started to suck on her fingers. That’s when I noticed it.
Her ring finger.
No tan line.
Dammit, I have put very clearly on my profile NO SINGLES. I don’t want to be associated with people who can’t at least try to have a committed relationship. If she isn’t good enough for someone else, what makes her think she’s good enough for me? And how do I explain this to my married friends here at the site? What would they think of me stepping out with someone who has no idea why married people step out?
She says that she didn’t want to hurt me, that she hoped that I would get to know her as a person and maybe accept her for who she is. And I have to admit, she really seemed nice. I really liked her.
But a person has to have some standards.
9/27/2005 4:38 am
I wouldn't have thought that you were that person? Standards seem to be out of your reach!|