A Mother's worst nightmare.....and ode to police officers  

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5/8/2006 6:44 pm

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5/9/2006 2:56 pm

A Mother's worst nightmare.....and ode to police officers

I am better now, though about 3 and a half hours ago....I was really freaked out.

It all started about 14 years ago.....that was when my son decided being a cop was his life calling. Being in healthcare myself, I know the dangers of the job.....but it never really seemed very real to me. Because about the same time he put that uniform on....he married and moved out on his own.

Yes I have seen him in uniform a time or two, but usually with his other motorcycle officers....at rodeos, at parades, or just riding down the street. HOw easy it is to forget a part of that uniform is wearing a gun and Kevlar vest, as well as being a target.

Tonight, when I got home from work and signed on to AdultFriendFinder....I saw a post in the chatroom about "officer down in fairfax county". My heart stopped beating.

As I went to turn on the TV, the thought that he had called me this morning after receiving an email went through my brain....and I rationalized maybe he wasn't at work today. It was a MOnday after all.

Then the news was the worst it could be...one officer killed, two critical. I called my son's house with no answer.....I don't think my heart was beating yet. Thirty seconds later the phone rang back, and it was my daugher-in-law.....as I answered....she said "he is okay....he is on his way there". One beat, two beats.....I could breathe again.

She and I talked about how it is so easy to forget how dangerous his job is, and how it only takes one incident like this to bring that all back into sight again. Unfortunately, my son and daughter-in-law were dealing with harder emotional issues as it did involve fellow officers, and many of their friends worked at that particular station. As we were talking, a live shot came on TV, and we saw him drive by on his motorcycle, and go into the command bus.

I feel humbled tonight. Knowing that somewhere there is a parent or spouse who is grieving the loss of an officer who was needlessly killed by a sniper, and other families fighting with whether their loved one will live or not. And will they ever really know why....as the sniper was killed.

But for now, my son is alive. But I don't think I will ever forget again that he lives his life in harm's way every day.......all to make his little corner of the world a better place for all of us to be.

_Safira 53F
11260 posts
5/8/2006 6:53 pm

All of you are in my thoughts and prayers. *much love*

Safira {=}

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GMURN replies on 5/8/2006 7:04 pm:
Thank you g/f.....though he is the one who I'll ask for daily prayers for now. The whole reality is something I need to come to terms with....don't think I can ever take for granted his safety again.

rm_TexNVa 49M/48F
376 posts
5/9/2006 3:29 am

Thank you for raising a son whose heart is protective and brave.
Thank him for being brave and protective of all of us.
Thank God for watching over us all.

GMURN replies on 5/9/2006 6:56 am:
Thanks Tex......this has been a very eye opening experience for me. I have always been extremely proud of what he does, and who he is. I think it takes great courage to be a police officer, just as it does for military.

horny4770 60M
8158 posts
5/9/2006 10:01 am

Most of us have no idea what you and his wife have to deal with daily.

My humble appreciation to all who wear the uniform and put themselves in harms way so bravely for us.

May God bless them and the families who support them!


GMURN replies on 5/9/2006 11:55 am:
Thank you. My contribution was just bringing him into the world, raising him right, and having him be part of a family dedicated to community service (his mom healthcare, his father fire department). I don't think I really thought much about it before last nite either. Needless to say, a special prayer will be said at night before I go to sleep each nite from here onward

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