Surviving "Lolita", sort of...  

FuzzyDad 56M
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7/3/2006 9:09 pm

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Surviving "Lolita", sort of...


I spent the weekend at our Sicilian-sister-in-law-from-hell's, helping my bro-in-law fill a rented dumpster with an assortment of collected junk they've acquired over time. When we arrived Friday evening, I took our bags down through the family room to the guest bedroom. As I was going down, I was told to be quiet, they had an exchange student from Spain, and she was sleeping.

I didn't think anything of it, my neice is a teenager, ergo, their guest had to be around her age. Saturday morning, after I got up and showered, I went upstairs to grab some coffee and get to work. What I didn't expect was to find a perfect picture of beauty, with my niece in the kitchen.

My niece introduced me as "her crazy uncle" (which I'm damn proud of being!), I tried to mumble a polite response. I blamed my fumbling on not having coffee yet, but this girl was beautiful beyond words.

Hear me now, before ANY of you get any ideas, absolutely NOTHING happened between this child and myself. She spent the majority of the weekend with my niece and her friends, only to rejoin the family at dinner. It's my mind that's "guilty" of running rampant with thoughts.

There was a quiet sensuality about her that spawned thoughts of carnality in my mind. I was extremely proud of myself for not staring at her, or making any lewd comments. I was raised, and pride myself on being, a perfect gentleman.

I just can't figure out why I was so preoccupied with ANY possibility of an encounter with her. Was it her being from Spain? Her mesmerizing beauty and innocent quietness? A combination of these and other unknowns?

I've never fully read the novel, "Lolita". I know the premise being about a man, tortured with being in love with a young girl, younger than social mores would permit. I found myself these past 3 days, pondering the possibility of fitting the same circumstances, only nowhere near as in depth as the protagonist in the story.

I wasn't "in love", I don't "know" the girl, nor will I ever. It was sheer attraction to her beauty, lust in it's simplest form. Being a father, I've spent the last 36 hours chiding myself for thinking as I did. (I can thank 12 years of Catholic brainwashing for the guilt trips) I don't think I was thinking the way I did to "recapture my youth", or compensate for my pending mid-life crisis, that's what rebuilding my skateboard was for.

I've often described myself - at least, since I turned 40 - as a "dirty old man in training". I never imagined myself ever thinking such things towards a 16-year-old. There's a huge part of me that knows it is "wrong", no, not THAT part, that's the one thinking it's right geez, ya pervs.

Has anyone else ever had such an experience, did it just "go away", or did you have to resort to diverse methods of thinking? How did you feel? Mind that I'm not looking for justification, just coping strategy, if you will.

I look forward to the more intelligent replies, other's will be deleted, as deserved.

VCF1962 104F

7/3/2006 9:58 pm

Thing is Fuzz, how many 16 year olds LOOK like they're 16 these days ? I think that's the problem. Young girls look older than they are from about 12 these days and that's where it becomes awkward for you guys I think.

Boys look like boys (and a lot of that is in their behaviour too), but girls - I pity you.

Perhaps you also like "dusky maidens" so she may have been your "type" too. There's nothing wrong with appreciating beauty - it becomes wrong when you act upon it and you know that she's underage (although here in the UK 16 is the age of consent). It may also be that she had an accent. I find that deeply erotic - I have a CD of an Italian singer - I skip the tracks where he sings in English and just go all silly when he sings in Italian or Spanish !

Never apologise for your feelings - they are what they are and you seem to be coping with them pretty well.

Mistress Innuendo
Taking what you say and turning it into something naughty !!


want2play926 45F

7/4/2006 10:03 am

I agree with VCF. Last night I was at the drive in with the kids. A little girl around 9 or 10 was dressed in less then I was. The boys all ran after her and her mother seemed pleased as punch. I wanted to kiss the mother's ass!

LITTLE girls need to dress like LITTLE girls and not women.

As far as your feelings, I don't see anything wrong per say. I think you just thought she was beautiful and guilt got the best of you. You will most likely forget all about this once you run into another Latina....something about the Latina women gets men silly.


FuzzyDad 56M

7/5/2006 6:04 am

Let me get this straight, you wanted to "kiss" the mother's ass?!?!?!
It was that cute, hmmm??

Believe me, ours is 9, and there are times when we march her right back upstairs to change into something else. She sees what her cousins' get away with, and she's just testing her boundaries.

The temporary infatuation didn't last long, you're right, though. It was just a severe attraction to her beauty. As far as the Latina women, I've already run into one who's made me so very much more than silly, she takes my breath away.


FuzzyDad 56M

7/5/2006 6:09 am

    Quoting VCF1962:
    Thing is Fuzz, how many 16 year olds LOOK like they're 16 these days ? I think that's the problem. Young girls look older than they are from about 12 these days and that's where it becomes awkward for you guys I think.

    Boys look like boys (and a lot of that is in their behaviour too), but girls - I pity you.

    Perhaps you also like "dusky maidens" so she may have been your "type" too. There's nothing wrong with appreciating beauty - it becomes wrong when you act upon it and you know that she's underage (although here in the UK 16 is the age of consent). It may also be that she had an accent. I find that deeply erotic - I have a CD of an Italian singer - I skip the tracks where he sings in English and just go all silly when he sings in Italian or Spanish !

    Never apologise for your feelings - they are what they are and you seem to be coping with them pretty well.
True, I've always had a penchant for, as you said, "the dusky maidens" (I love that!!!!), but I'm one of those pitiful fools who finds beauty in almost all women (almost, I said. I've seen some that would send plastic surgeons into the night, screaming).

I have Shakira's "Laundry Service" CD, and I am right with you, sometimes I pass up on her English songs to hear that wonderful voice in Spanish. Then it's off to yet another cold shower... *sigh* ....someday...


want2play926 45F

7/18/2006 10:28 am

    Quoting FuzzyDad:
    Let me get this straight, you wanted to "kiss" the mother's ass?!?!?!
    It was that cute, hmmm??

    Believe me, ours is 9, and there are times when we march her right back upstairs to change into something else. She sees what her cousins' get away with, and she's just testing her boundaries.

    The temporary infatuation didn't last long, you're right, though. It was just a severe attraction to her beauty. As far as the Latina women, I've already run into one who's made me so very much more than silly, she takes my breath away.
I meant KICK the mother's ass.....

now I am gonna go KICK my own ass for not looking over my comments before I post them!


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