still here ......kinda  

Fox4aKnight1 43F
1176 posts
1/14/2006 10:48 pm

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still here ......kinda

Hi y'all .....I am still watching and posying my blogs here. As y'all know me beter here. I am sorry but the depression is kinda bad atm. I am just either attempting to work on graphics or readig a book. I seem to perfer the fiction to my everyday life and sometimes takes a major act of will to actually get up and gt something to eat much less get out of bed. Well anyhow I am still alive and what not. And depression is bad yes, but mine is a little diffrent. Mine seems to be like a fog or something made of molasses. it just slows me down. I rarely actually get so upset that I cry much any more. Well not unless there has been something to trigger that. Anyhow hugs all ......and miss ya


Fallic40 53M
1858 posts
1/15/2006 8:39 am

But you did get out of bed. That is a start. I am sending you a big hug - right now that is what you need the most.

Fox4aKnight1 43F

1/15/2006 12:48 pm

hugs Fallic and thank .........I have worked hard and gotten to the point where gettting out of bed is not so difficult as it use to be. ........partly is that I get bored real easy and laying there doing nothing is boring LOL I get up and come to the computer and read a book at the very least.

hugs again.

sleeplessknight1 68M

1/17/2006 12:37 pm

that describes depression so well.....
same here when it his..its a dark cloud that just takes over....
hope it passes soon....

Fox4aKnight1 43F

1/17/2006 3:51 pm

thanks sleepless and hugs ......I seem to have been trying to describe it for years .....and when I was younger there were alot of dramatics to go with wanting to die .....that is still there. I have just found however that its not
1. practiacal to persue
2. prudent todiscuss it
3. it only makes me focus on the bad things.

All in all I have found that whenI ignore the urge or want ....whatever you want to call it. And I read or something then I seem to do better all the way around. Gets most ppl upset when ya talk about it yanno?


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