I can be Sexy if I want!!!  

Fox4aKnight1 43F
1176 posts
4/13/2006 3:52 pm

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4/16/2006 7:52 pm

I can be Sexy if I want!!!

You know what? I was having a conversation with a close friend tonight when I realized something I meant it when I told him I am a good person. Here is my quote, “sweetie ...I know I am a good person ....and so on even depressed and feeling down I never allow myself to forget that I am a good person no matter what I feel at the time” and I realized that what I was telling him was very true. I also know I am pretty and even at times beautiful. I know I am because I feel that way. Many women know that being sexy or beautiful is mostly attitude. Its not in how you dress or what you wear its in you. Its your demeanor. How you hold yourself. Its in what you think of yourself. I told him that after he said that if I needed any boost to please come to him. I really do care for him sweetheart that he is. But I wanted to let him know that come what may I believed in myself. I know just how important it is to believe in yourself.

If I didn’t believe in myself I would be trying so very hard to find a man to validate my feelings …and make myself feel good about myself. But I haven’t. I have patiently waited for the right person to come along. I don’t even have a lover and haven’t since the new year. Can you imagine 4 months of no sex. I have been looking for a new lover ….and thought I had one for a little bit and still wondering what is happening there. But as I am in no hurry I can wait. I am not the type of girl that needs to hop into bed with someone just to feel the warmth of arms wrapped around me even though it is something I miss keenly. I would like to have a boyfriend or something of that nature but it looks like that will be denied me for a longer while and that too is alright. I will go on.

I found that being overweight as I am does not mean that I can’t be sexy. Hell I am 6’ tall. LOL But like I said it is mostly in your additude. I am overweight and sexy when I want to be, or silly, or just plain fun. Its up to me what I want to be.

Lately my emotions have slipped from the depression that has had me close for all these many months and I am so happy it has. I went to my families to have my dad look at my car and he can fix it but perhaps not soon. I am content. I turned around and went back hoe but when I did I put the top to the convertible down and turned up the music. I smiled, it felt so good to feel the sun on my arms the warmth on my shoulders as I drove down the road. The wind in my hair and the music on the radio. I still feel good and I imagine that I looked darn cute. I had plenty of people in traffic smiling back at me during the traffic lights simply because I smiled at them when they looked at me.

I think that is pretty much all I will say for now. I am still feeling great. Hugs all

rm_1hotwahine 63F
21091 posts
4/13/2006 8:03 pm

I really liked the tone of this post!

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/13/2006 8:24 pm:
thanks 1hotwahine I am just feeling good. And even though I am discussing something important I wanted peopel to ffeel how I felt today. I am not outraged or anything like that. I am me*G* and that is a good thing!

Nightguy_1961 55M
4866 posts
4/13/2006 9:03 pm

Glad you have such a good day...may you have many more like it.

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/14/2006 12:20 am:
hugs sweetie they come and go ....you know how it is ....right now I am in the room with my cam on and playing music LOL

rm_sharksnsails 46M
738 posts
4/14/2006 2:31 am

I didn't know you were over six feet tall, I always thought you were a short italian chick.
ps really i figured you at 5'4" or something, don't know why.

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/14/2006 3:26 am:
LOL hun ......yeah ....most pl think so ...they can't seem to remember I am 6' tall ...till they meet me ....LOL ....then they go DAMN LOL I actually wore 5 " heels n a date once ...lol the guy was 6'[ 2" and he didn't mind ... and I took them off to dance ....we had a blast ....LOL

NGs_lady 64F
762 posts
4/14/2006 3:11 am

Glad you are out of the funk, and yes you are a good person. Like you told me we are all beautiful in our way so go for it girl. Be all you can be, and want to be. As far as the warm arms if you will accept a friends i'm sending you a dozen hugs for you to use at your choosing.
12 hugs for you

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/14/2006 3:27 am:
Lady you are so sweet ....and a hugs from you ....always ....I would never refuse a hug from you!!!

shyknight2005 42M
163 posts
4/14/2006 10:28 pm

you are one sexy woman milady, as you hear from me alot, although maybe not in so many words. Its a matter of attitude, and it shows in your loving, caring heart. And you dont look so bad on cam either

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/16/2006 7:56 pm:
hugs Shy ....and *flash* just for being so sweet *snicker*

Linds1957 59F

4/15/2006 6:53 am

Beauty is as beauty does... smile and the world smiles with you.. and all that ...The truth is.. happiness spreads...
I'm so glad you're happier again..I hate depression.. It gets me sometimes and it's awful...Hugsss

Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/16/2006 7:54 pm:
Hugs Linds I know hun .......Depression sucks .....but its no good at giving a BJ LOL ....sorry couldn't resist LOL

fantasylover_05 62M

4/15/2006 2:41 pm


You are absolutely spot on right!!!

It is in YOU (and each of us)!!

Sexy and beautiful is all about ATTITUDE!!!


Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/16/2006 7:53 pm:
smooches Fantasy and thank you sweetie!!

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