Weee, let's get -r - done  

Firechan 33F
2 posts
7/19/2005 8:04 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Weee, let's get -r - done

Well anyhow.. I thought I might as well really jump into this and see how it goes. I'm so excited today. I just got a new job after being fired from the local telecommunications place. That has to be some sort of social stigma, who gets fired from a telemarketing office? Of course I had two deaths in as many weeks and I fell rather ill over the past few months as well. I'm anemic and my iron level has dropped another gram since I started trying to like boost it?

Sex is not part of my life and that sucks. A lot. I believe mroe people need to have more sex more often. American society today is so uptight and isolated.. interpersonal relationships need to be more open and a lot more casual. I don't understand why a lot of people have such a weird response to hearing that their partner has the desire to explore their sexuality a bit. I've always been mongogomus; however, I have been part of a three way relationship though I was never involved with the man. Though he and I became very close and I might even say I had a kind of love that went beyond simple friendship for him as well. His wife was my first kiss and first experience of any kind sexually. Her name was Chris.. I still say she's one of the most beautiful people I've ever known. Her body was perfect in every way. She had the most pale, almost glowing, white skin I'd ever seen in my life. Perfect tone all over. She had the kind of classic figure seen in the old paintings and statues that are shown in museums. She was, and is, my muse.

Her husband, Adam, and I always have got along and joked easily. I'm not as close to him as I am her. She and I still speak and may perhaps live together again at some point. They have both provided an wonderful environment for me on several occassions when I was stripped emotionally. They both got to the habbit of calling me "Wifey" and I was always charmed by it despite the weird reactions we'd get when we explained why I was staying with them. It wasn't even about sex with her, it was about this wonderful person who I was close to as well as her partner who accepted me and had no jelousy when she told him if she ever divorced him she would be with me. How many people can say they experienced something like that? It's always been a marvelous aspect of my life.

Rightnow however, I'm not doing much of anything like that. I've got a snickety rackety anal relationship that's long distance that I'm tempted to just dismiss sometimes because he.. yes a boy -gasp- doesn't understand my needs as far as relationships with others go.. and the fact that I'm still attached at the hip to several people. I can think of two people that I know that I'd have no problem entering into a casual relationship no matter what my dating status is at the moment. Why does this cause people to say "OMG NO, you can't you are mine.." !! What gives anyone the right to feel that another person is not just someone who cares for them mutally, but is their possession and their property? People aren't like a house or a car.. you can't just sign a peice of paper and get the land rights to someone's heart, mind and body. Some people, no matter how much they love you, have needs that you can't fully fulfill. No one can really completly encompass another soul's every need and be happy themselves. But that's just the observation of a hillbilly girl from west viriginia.. what do you think?

tamethytension 54M
2320 posts
7/19/2005 11:35 am

Welcome Firechan,

a nice start ... continue to speak your mind and heart and at a minimum this will reward you with a refreshing release from the every day. And along the way, friends will drop by to see how you are doing.

tame thy tension

PS> spent the fall of 03 living in a remote log cabin just a bit north of the Dollysods ... a stark, misty beauty all its own.

Firechan 33F

7/20/2005 8:56 pm

Dolly sods is a lovely area. I plan on keeping my posts up. Hopefully I'll have something a tad more interesting than my idle banter to post up sometime soon. Take care

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