The Beast Within  

Fallic40 53M
3214 posts
1/4/2006 5:28 pm
The Beast Within

Have you ever had a nightmare that disturbed you? A nightmare that left you shaking and quaking in bed with the all of the sheets trashed around you, afraid to turn on the light in case it was real, but needing the light to re-assure yourself that everything is alright.

On an intellectual level, you know that it was a dream. But on a primal level, it has left a scar on the soul. You know it is the subconscious playing party tricks but was the subconscious also delivering a warning?

I never remember dreams or nightmares.

And yet I had one of these last night at 1:17am. I woke up from it terrified, sweating, trembling, my already damaged heart pounding so hard that I could feel it hitting the back of my sternum. I could taste the fire and the blood that was in it. I had the screams from within the nightmare reverberating in my skull and hammering on the back of my eyes.

The dream was the most terrible thing I have ever imagined. It was much worse than anything I have ever seen in a movie or read in a book. It was so vile and evil that I will not go into details - it truly would disturb anyone who has a delicate personage.

I have been awake since 1:17. I was too scared to go back to sleep last night. I am frightened to sleep tonight - what if I have this nightmare tonight. I think it will be a sofa night with the tv and the light on.


_Safira 53F
11260 posts
1/5/2006 12:51 pm

My darling Fallic ~ In addition to Tennismaiden's good advice (a lot of which I know to which you adhere), please remember that I will leave the light on in case you need to stop-by ... no matter the hour. (I'll hear the doorbell.) *gentle hugs*

P.S. And yes. I have had those types of nightmares. *soft smile*

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impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/5/2006 1:34 pm

Fallic...share. The nightmare loses it's power once the words are spoken. Not healthy for you to keep it inside and give it power. As one who has confronted the "demons" I'm well versed in "light". Send me an email & I'll give you a number you can call 24/7 - I've got my swords sharpened and ready.

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
1/5/2006 7:14 pm

Say a prayer and turn all the lights on!

I hate dreams like that.

{=} Purry

Purry


Fallic40 53M
1858 posts
3/20/2006 1:32 pm

purry, I did indeed try that; but to no avail


Fallic40 53M
1858 posts
3/20/2006 1:33 pm

tennismaiden, I have done many of the mentioned things. I do not even have any real stress in my life right now. This one just came in from out of the blue.


Fallic40 53M
1858 posts
3/20/2006 1:34 pm

saf, thanks for the offer and the care.


Fallic40 53M
1858 posts
3/20/2006 1:35 pm

imp, thank you for caring.


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