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So, I typically get along with guys way more than females. Always have, and probably always will. I've often said that I'm just way more wired like a guy than a female. I don't like dressing up (I'm so utterly uncomfortable in dresses/skirts and I HATE heels. Cannot wear them AT ALL ) I hate shopping, unless it's spending time at Best Buy or any other electronics store, or the comic book shop or a book store .... I've never cared about getting my nails done and all that, my make up is always very minimal, etc etc etc
Most things females do and the way they act, tend to irritate me. They're way too backstabbing and competive. I don't know, I've just always been able to talk to guys much easier than females.
However .... I do wish I had at least one good female friend. I've had female friends in the past, but it's been a loooong time since I've had a really close female friend. I'd love to have a female to hang out with from time to time. I want a girls night out (granted, it'd be kind of limited with what we would do since I don't really like being around smoke and I don't like drinking)
There's no way I would find anyone just by going out somewhere. For one, I don't like going out by myself. For another thing, I'm so much more shy in person .. I wouldn't even no where to start, where to look .. and I think there's also the fear that I just will never meet a female that I would actually get along with. But, it's gotten to the point where I just really crave and need a female friend.
Not to mention that my bi-curiousity desires are swelling up in me again. One would think as open as I am that I would have been with a female by now. But then, I don't really have friends in real life period. I have a couple of male friends that I'm very close with, but only a couple.
I don't know, some how I ended up here (again, for I think I've had an account here before) and I thought, "what the hell .. maybe..." Maybe there is a female on here that is looking for a friend as well (and maybe a bit more .. maybe want to explore and have that "friend with benefits" thing as well)
I have to say that I would become a silver member, but I think the price is absolutely ridiculas for that. I'm hoping being a standard member will be enough.
I honestly don't expect for this to really work .. but, never say never. I mean, I did meet my friend/lover through an adult meeting board place .. so they obviously do work.
I think the main problem is that so many females are looking for sex and nothing else .. and I'm sorry, but I need to have a connection and friendship before I'll even think about intamacy and sex. I want friendship first and foremost, and that seems to be such a rarity here. Perhaps there are a few fems on here though that are looking for the same as I. Time will tell.
In the meantime, I just keep telling myself that she is out there, and I will meet her when I am meant to.