Exploration in Exhibitionism  

Ember72 44F
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11/1/2005 12:07 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Exploration in Exhibitionism

I was “naughty” on A.F.F. the other eve for the first time. It’s not the first time I’ve done sexual things on cam, but it was the first time for A.F.F.

I just happened to be in the right mood, cam just happened to be on, and hubby just happened to come over and told me to suck him. How could I turn him down (or the viewers for that matter? *smiles*)

I went into the webcam fun room. I kept making little posts with a period, just so all could find my cam easily. I wanted to get as many watching us as I could. Like I said, I was just in the right mood, and I was feeding off others watching. Feeding off others getting turned on by it and having explosive orgasms thanks to us. At one point, we had almost 800 people viewing us. The most I’ve EVER had viewing my cam (usually it’s only about 100-200)

The path down the exhibitionist road started about 3 years ago when I signed up on Literotic. I found the Am Picture Feedback section, and instantly decided that I HAD to get a cam and try taking pictures myself. At first, it was exciting, something new, a complete turn on. After posting the first couple of pix and getting the response I did, I went gung ho with it and started taking pictures like crazy. I showed it all. I was dirty and naughty (although, even back then, I still did themes and stripteases)

Then boredom set in, and just exhaustion from having to set things up and take the pix myself. I began to take them less and less. Then I quit all together for a while. I had to take a break from it for awhile. When I started back up again, it became more of an artistic outlet for me. I went from Hustler/Penthouse type photos to more of Playboy type photos. It became more about me being creative and not so much caring whether others enjoyed or not (but I did still enjoying knowing that others were enjoying them…still a turn on to know I could make someone hard and make them cum…the exhibitionist is definitely very much alive in me).

As stated, I have turned the cam on for others. Actually, when we first got the webcam, I would go to a place called webcam now…where others could view anybody that happened to have their cam going. I remember one eve, hubby and I had sex while watching another couple, and they were watching us. It was quite interesting, fun, and a BIG turn on. I never showed my face at that place, but I did show myself playing quite a bit. It was exciting at first. That whole “taboo” aspect. Doing something that you know you probably shouldn’t be doing, just knowing that all those people were watching.

Now, I may turn on the cam on A.F.F. and I may even flash some skin here and there, but I reserve the more “playful” stuff for my friends . It’s just, every once in a while, I get that wild hair and just feel like showing off for others, for any and everyone. Not caring who is watching.

The really odd thing…I am pretty shy in person. I don’t like to be the center of attention in public. I don’t like the spotlight on me. I prefer to be in the corner, in the shadows. I become the voyeur in public. I like to watch others, listen in on conversations, and if I can do so without being noticed, that’s even better.

I tend to be pretty quiet in person. If I get the vibe that someone is ok and whatnot, I might open up and start talking to them. If I reach that comfort level, I’ll become a chatter box then. But for the most part, I’m pretty reserved and not very outgoing in person.

So, there ya go. A little bit on me and my exploration into exhibitionism *smiles*

rm_kansaslew 56M

11/2/2005 6:30 pm

interesting article... I'd love to see more of you...r.... writting...

Ember72 44F

11/2/2005 8:55 pm

thanx kansas

best way to get to know me is to read my ramblings and rants on here

ynomevd 52M

11/18/2005 12:03 pm

Hey just thought i'd drop a note. Sorry not a load. lol . Would have like to have seeyour little cumming out so to say. I have enjoyed your cam. Even though you leave you clothes on.You like to talk about differnt things and thats hot. Stay the way you are. You have a great body. ( when you get the nerve up to show it ) Take care and hope to see ya on cam soon.

Ember72 44F

11/18/2005 8:18 pm

Thank you ynomevd

it's not so much that I don't have the nerve to show off or am too shy (as one can tell from all the many pix I've taken and posted on Lit) I just don't FEEL like showing anything. I try to keep the "playing" for friends on Yahoo.. more one on one or a very smaller audience. That's just my preference. I'd rather chitchatt with others and tease them here and there than just get naked and show off. It's not my style. I'm too much of a tease

rm_Al6man 52M
3 posts
11/27/2005 1:33 pm

Well, you have to be a little bit of a tease to play here on a web cam. But it really is all about you having fun. I know in your profile you say you dabble in photography. That can be fun as well, just be careful where the picture end up

I would love to hear more about your photo and video experiences!

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