Eastside__Devil 36F
420 posts
4/21/2006 7:52 am

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4/23/2006 4:07 pm


So it’s been a strange week for me, so much goes through my head at this time of year as it is and with all that has happened, it’s been rough to say the least.

I am not a brave person to say the least but I am strong in my own way.

Sometimes I really wish I could roll back the clock a few years and redo parts of my life but I know I cant so what’s the point of wishing to do that?

Things I would do if I could…..

I would have told him how I felt.

I would have finished college.

I would have taken the time for myself.

I would have not let myself be so afraid.

I guess we all have things in our lives we wish we could redo but everything that has passed in my life has shaped me into the person I am and if things have been different so would I. I guess it’s a matter of loving too fiercely and yet being so afraid to show it because it has always hurt me to love so now I run away from the idea…. Maybe the time has come for me to change, time for me to be as brave and fearless as many have thought me…. Better yet maybe it’s time to go have some breakfast.

rm_PeanutJackie 36F
1286 posts
4/22/2006 7:58 am

East, one of my very first impressions of you was that you were a very strong person. Not to mention you have a great sense of humor andan infectious laugh. I think we all have those "shoulda-coulda-woulda" moments. But I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. You know what the best thing is? You can still do all of those things that you listed. No, it's not the same, but you would have some closure.


"I am beautiful no matter what you say, words can't bring me down. So don't you bring me down today."

irishtongue71 51M

4/22/2006 11:32 am

East we have never met but in your writings you come across as one of the most in-control, bravest people I have come to know. Hopefully soon we'll get a chance to meet in person but there are alot of people here and probably around you as well in your corner, so that's a plus.

Stay the course..your future is what you make of it someone once said, and I think you'll do wonders.


SinsualIntellect 52M
31 posts
4/22/2006 2:38 pm

East, some of those things may be too far in the past, but some are not. While you still draw breath, you can return to school. Don't start thinking you're old before your time, dear.

You're only 26.

I'm 41 and I attend classes at the local U. Look into finaid and get it going. You're still young enough to not be out of place, not like a 41yr old among 20somethings.

rm_Dorbadim75 41M
30 posts
4/23/2006 12:07 am

Life happens now. Don't be afraid to feel because you will miss the good as well as the bad. You have to know the lows to appreciate the heights.


rm_jmacinOC 60M/56F
3 posts
4/23/2006 1:09 pm

Well timed posting ESD. I lost a parent unexpectedly last week (both gone now) and have spent alot of time in reflection the past few days. I guess everything is what it is and we just have to muddle thru somehow. Not sure what it all means, but I know that if you let it get you, it will. Peanut has some pretty good stuff to say, listen to her comments. Stay strong, be true to yourself. You will be fine....

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