Djeeper1987 47M
3388 posts
7/23/2006 12:34 pm

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7/24/2006 7:39 pm


I woke up feeling somewhat out of place. How do I explain this to myself. Why do I feel out of place?
Thou yesterday was very humity and hot, as it is along the rest of the country. I spent most of my day at the pool, and chatting it up with the neighbors in my apt complex. Everyone is really nice. Course some are shy, and others more open with their lives. The one thing I noticed out of all of the people at the pool was the fact that everyone was either married or getting married. I realized for the first time in the 7 years I have lived at this apt complex that I am the only single person. How depressing.
Any way, that didn't really bother me at first til later in the evening.
I couldn't help myself from eyeing the beautiful women there. Especially my nieghbor right next door to me. He is a pretty cool guy who is about to marry an even more awesome woman. They are both nice and the kick is the guy I knew from before. He and I were childhood friends till after high school we drifted apart. Small world, eh? So he has been pretty cool to me and we are both catching up. Moving on, they had some friends come over. Very thin, slick good looking people. Now I really felt out of place. My friend invited me over later on for some food. But I said I was full from my dinner and told him thank you, but I didn't wanna be in the way. He said it was ok, but I told I was going to bed soon and that we will catch up later. We shook hands and he left back to the party. Boy it sounded like fun, the music was brazilian and they were dancing like crazy. I was actually smiling.
So pretty much all day I felt out of place, its the only way to describe how I was feeling. I felt so alone.
Most everyone I know in my life has either moved away or has drifted apart from me.
Anyway, today is cooler but still hot. Yesterday was 103 and today is 90.
Well I hope everyone has a nice Sunday. I am hoping when I get back to work tomorrow Monday it will be a lot cooler.
Ciao for now!!

Carpe Diem

countryheart_71 45F
8082 posts
7/23/2006 4:50 pm

Sounds like 3rd wheel syndrome. I have that alot. ~hugs~


Djeeper1987 replies on 7/23/2006 7:14 pm:
3rd wheel indeed, been like that most of my life.

Addy19742 42F

7/23/2006 7:01 pm

I want to give you a big hug!

Djeeper1987 replies on 7/24/2006 7:41 pm:
Give it to me baby.

sweetmissvixen 49F
5 posts
7/24/2006 12:39 am

I can so relate to all that you said. Most days are fine but there are those days when you almost feel like everyone is moving forward
and you are still standing in the same place. I know its hard when you are feeling like you are on the outside looking in kind of thing. Sometimes you can even feel even more alone by being with around everyone too if that makes any sense. Just hope things look up for you soon~Hugs Vixen

real36CgirlPA 37F

7/24/2006 7:01 pm

I am always one of the only single people. It is weird, especially when there isn't anybody to even check out without feeling guilty about it because they're taken already.

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