Why am I blogging? (more about me)  

DiscreetFunCMH 50M
62 posts
7/29/2006 6:46 am

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Why am I blogging? (more about me)

Ah… Well, there’s a loaded question. It started last fall. I was in a Fantasy Football league {sorry ladies, yes I’m into that sort of thing, but I know my priorities} and of course reading lots of sports articles and found myself thinking I could write better than most of these “journalists”. No I don’t have the training and maybe I have a problem with run on sentences now and then {oh just wait}. But content and perception, and the ability to add a bit of humor, I thought I could do just a good of job if not better. Well I did nothing about it, surprise, surprise. This spring, I started reading a book “The Ghost Rider” by the lyricist and drummer of my all time favorite band. It was the writer commenting and journaling his journey after losing both his daughter and wife within 10 months of each other. That inspired me. I searched around and picked myself up a journal from Half Price Books and started writing. It was April Fool’s Day. Ironic to say the least. It was also day 30. 30 days since my wife had a serious surgery and 30 days before she was to have a second even more serious surgery. Very dark days indeed.

Being a man, I am ….. “an island” {I am a rock, I am an island..}. Not many friends and even those I do have, I don’t trust with the most intimate things of my life… of my mind. But my journal, my new best friend, I could pour out my feelings and at the same time practice a bit of this blogging thing without the critical eye of the public doing what they do best, critiquing. This has gone well and somewhere along the way I showed up here and found the blogs and started reading. Couldn’t help myself, but I started commenting as well. That’s when this nice little cum slut {said with all the affection and appreciation in the world} started commenting on my comments and encouraging me to start a blog. Well that lit a fire under my ass and once again, I’m inspired. I let her know that it was on it’s way in a couple of days and that very day, my “real life” changed.

Apparently, the wifey was feeling insecure and felt the need to leaf through one of my journals {I am/was on my second}. As I described earlier, the last few months have been rather dark and my day to day emotions not the best or the most kind, particularly when it came to my wife. Nothing hurtful, as a matter of fact, many prayers for her well being. But also some venting. Frustrating things that we all experience daily with our significant others. Things from the past as well, things that, as a new journal writer, I was “getting off my chest”. Well as you can imagine, things were taken literally and/or out of context rather than understanding the spirit in which they were written. After all, they were my personal thoughts and feelings at the time without any disclaimers as to the reason I wrote them that particular day for anyone outside of myself to be reading let a lone understanding.

I’ve not written in my journal since. Last night, my heart was very heavy as I made the most difficult decision to stop writing in a journal at least for the time being and burning the existing journals. As much good as it has done for me over the past few months, it in one evening caused a lot of additional and unintentional harm. At the same time, I considered my decision to start blogging and had pretty much decided it was a bad idea as well. That was until this morning. B once again unknowingly dropped me a sarcastic little comment waning to know where my blog that I was going to start was? Do I tell her it’s not going to happen? No, I need an outlet.

Soooo, Here it is.

My apologies if it gets dark at times {such as this one}. I’ll do my best to keep most of that kind of thing out of here and make this as upbeat and interesting as possible as I share my insights and hopefully my humor {it can be dry}. I did feel however, that I owe anyone reading this a little insight, a little perspective of where I’m coming from and how I got here. Now, it’s time to move on to what is not needed in this world but can’t resist anyways…. Another blog.

Hope you enjoy,

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
7/29/2006 8:11 am

No apologies necessary! Welcome to the blogs

Purry {=}


marnison 79F

7/29/2006 8:51 am

blogging ...isn't for everyone. good luck


rm_Baby_45 57F
1 post
7/29/2006 9:53 am

Well it seems to me that your body is experiencing a void while at the same time, your mind is overrun with emotions. Whether anyone besides me reads your blogs or not, it'll make you feel better to get it all out. Lack of intimacy in cohabitant relationships appear to be a widespread problem, not only for males, but females as well. I began seeking outside "friends" when I could no longer bear the loneliness myself. Go for it, write all you want and I hope you fill your void and ease your mind....I know where you're coming from and it has helped me tremendously!!!

libgemOH 56M/52F

7/30/2006 6:30 am

Dark is ok...Just be you!!! This is for you and no one else!!! Just enjoy the journey!! -B

bipolybabe 55F

7/30/2006 8:56 am

B said to tell ya "hi" so here I am.



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wickedeasy 67F  
26743 posts
7/30/2006 10:21 am

B sent me

a blog is an open journal - people will tell you if they think you're full of shit, but they'll also tell you when you touch their hearts - write aboaut whatever you want/need to write about. no need to pretty it up or try to be amusing - sometimes life just isn't all that amusing, yanno?

welcome -

isn't b a gem??

You cannot conceive the many without the one.

marathonman45202 53M
6640 posts
7/30/2006 11:56 am

Welcome to blogland, where no apologies are necessary (unless you're not playing nice). I'm pretty new to blogging here as well. Hope you stop by some time!

sexyariesgirl 57F

8/4/2006 4:58 am

Don't censor yourself.....this is the most therapeutic thing I've ever found! It's crazy how just putting your thoughts and feelings out there can make such a huge difference. Welcome to the blogs!

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