One More Day  

DefiniteTrouble 50F
2839 posts
9/7/2005 9:00 am

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One More Day

"One more day, one more time. One more sunset then maybe I'd be satisfied. But then again, I know what it would do. Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you." - Diamond Rio

Though I have loved many, I've only been in love once. That deep, emotional bond that joins your heart and soul for eternity. You can't imagine life without him. There would be no life without him. Just an empty shell fumbling through day-to-day life with no real purpose.

I have wandered down this road longer than I care to, and no matter how many times I reach the bridge, I always look back. He's there. Knowing his pain is as gut-wrenching as my own, I can't take that first step to cross the bridge. We're left standing there, staring, afraid to touch, afraid to let go. The day will come when I'll have to take that first step, not because I want to, but because I have to, crossing that bridge without looking back.

If we just had one more day, perhaps we could bring closure. I'd want to sit silently, wrapped tightly in his arms. Very little, if any, words would need to be spoken, as our minds are one, our thoughts the same. Sex would be too emotional. We'd just hold one another, perhaps sharing a kiss or two. How would such a day end, watching as he walked away, your heart and soul with him, his remaining with you. The emptiness. The pain.

The day will come when, as the sun sets in the distance, I'll cross that bridge. Today, however, I'll wander aimlessly down that road and once again, I'll look back.

If you had one day to spend with your soulmate, knowing there would never be another, how would you spend that day?

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lifeisablast333 53M

9/7/2005 3:09 pm

alone with my lover, someplace nice, and naked of course............

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
9/8/2005 8:14 am

I would spend it kissing.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/8/2005 6:32 pm

Goddess - I forgot to mention naked, didn't I? Ditto.

diehardrummerboy 54M

9/8/2005 7:16 pm

not to diminish the power of the sentiment, it is a wonderful song, but i think it was Diamond Rio.

diehardrummerboy 54M

9/8/2005 7:19 pm

and i'd spend it with my grandparents, who are no longer with us and with whom i never got to spend enough time. time i'll never get back.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/8/2005 7:38 pm're right Diehard...OMG

When I wrote that yesterday I wasn't in the best frme of call set me off. Changing it now...thanks. (smooch)

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/9/2005 3:56 am

MzHuny -

Mine is also somewhat bittersweet, and as you can tell, pretty sad, although for different reasons. Your situation, I agree, is of the worst kind. You can fight for your man and kick another woman's ass, but substance abuse is a whole new ballgame.

It's sad that the abuser is often not the one effected's the ones that love him/her. Glad to know you're bouncing back...(hugs)

diehardrummerboy 54M

9/11/2005 8:41 pm

been thinking about that bridge you spoke of. she crossed it several months ago, leaving me standing at the edge, wondering how the hell we ever got there. i've been angrily throwing stones across the river, hating her for taking us to that bridge. she found her new path all too easily for me. i'm still stumbling around, wondering where my path is. when i said my vows, there wasn't supposed to be any bridge, or different paths. just a journey, with your partner, surely, fraught with roadblocks and complications, but not insurmountable. i'd planned to grow old with my partner, like my parents, and theirs before them. what the hell happened? i even wrote a song, "i'm gonna make the first one last". i feel like such a naive fool now. why are marriages so easily disposable today? seems like, for some people, it's as easy to "change partners-do-si-do" as it is to trade your old car in for a new one. excuse me for being an old fashioned fuck, but where relationships and marriages are concerned, they weren't intended to comply with today's "conviently disposeable" attitude.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/11/2005 10:11 pm

Nothing wrong with being old-fashioned...not many of you left.

And yes, it seems as if everything in society today has become disposable...hearts, emotions, and lives. Sucks.

diehardrummerboy 54M

9/12/2005 8:38 pm

sorry for venting, again, just your reference to that bridge stirred some not so well hidden emotions. let's get back to sex and humor. much more fun.

DefiniteTrouble 50F

9/12/2005 9:15 pm

True, lol....

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