The thing I hate the most about myself...  

David_Rizal 37M
12 posts
7/1/2006 5:17 am

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The thing I hate the most about myself...


...is being the prime example of the negative oriental stereotype: Short, weak, quiet, effeminate, nerdy, and sexually-incompetent with a small dick.

I have all of these qualities, and it fucking sucks. It sucks most of all because I feel like I'm letting down my fellow asians by reinforcing this bullshit image of the oriental male, instead of helping to demolish it.

The problem is, it's so hard to change my personality. I wish I could be louder, more confident and outgoing. I wish I could be more comfortable around women.
I wish I was taller, but I've stopped growing years ago.
I wish my cock wasn't so fucking tiny, although I would never consider having an operation to make it bigger, even if I were a millionaire.

Why am I saying all of this on an adult dating site, when I know it's going to destroy any chances of me finding a girl here?
Because right now I feel like I never had any chance to begin with. How many fucking profiles have I come across where the woman states that she's looking for somebody "tall, with a confident and outgoing personality, and a really BIG DICK"?
That's three strikes, I'm out. What's the point? I'm not saying it's wrong for a woman to want these qualities in a man. It's just fucked up that I don't fulfil these requirements, and probably never will.

But another reason why I'm saying all this is because I'm tired of the dishonesty on this site. I'm tired of keeping up appearances and being fake. I'm tired of sending emails and trying to make myself sound attractive in my profile description, even though I can't think of anything good to say. I'm tired of giving a shit what complete strangers think about me. I'm just here to vent my spleen.

So here I am. Welcome to my blog. This is me. If you like me, then feel free to leave a comment. If not... well, then fuck off.

Anyhoo, onto meal 2 of the day:

Half a plate of spaghetti bolognaise, a plate of mixed vegetables, and one apple.
Ohhh, yeahh

Valdrane78 38M

7/1/2006 5:36 am

Ya know what. I'm short, nerdy looking, I have a beer gut and a small penis. But if given the proper amount of time I could have ANY woman I want. The trick isn't looking at your faults, the thing is to look at what ya like about yourself improve on those, and just say to yourself.
"Dammit, I am God's gift to women"

Nothing turns off a woman quicker than a man with no self esteem. So, pull your head out of your ass find your good qualities and know, not think, that you're a bad ass motherfucker and women want you.

Oh, you will also find out, that if ya just try and talk to the women, that sooner or later your luck will change, somwetimes it takes weeks and other times it takes months. Persistance is the game here. I know I ain't much too look at but I have gotten more than my fair share of women off this site. The system works, but you gotta work the system.

BANG! POW! BOOM! a study in useless knowledge and sick humor!
I want a damn soundtrack to my blog!


David_Rizal replies on 7/1/2006 6:33 am:
Thanks for the advice, man. And it's great to hear that other guys out there similar to me are having success with women. You rock!
I agree with you that self-esteem is the biggest problem I have, and the one quality that is bound to make the most difference.
Unfortunately, my head is still firmly lodged up my ass (and my sphincter muscles are pretty tense), and it's going to take a while before I can pull it out and feel better about myself.
Before I can gain self-confidence, I first need something to feel confident about. Just like losing weight and improving fitness, building self-esteem is a gradual process. I have to be realistic. Just as Rome wasn't built in a day, neither will my future "bad-ass mutherfugger" attitude.
But I'm working on it.

angelofmercy5 59F
17881 posts
7/1/2006 5:47 am

Good advice from Valdrane there. I think it is self esteem that matters. You're blog was written well, and intelligently. I think you will find a woman that will appreciate all of your qualities. And most real women don't care about the size of your penis.....sex, especially for a woman begins in the mind.


David_Rizal replies on 7/1/2006 6:44 am:
ooh, there's that phrase "self esteem" again.
My penis size isn't the single biggest issue I have with myself. Picasso supposedly was an incredible lover, even though he had a tiny todger. The difference between Picasso and me, though, is that he actually has talent, and I don't. lol

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
7/1/2006 5:47 am

I have to agree with Valdrane. It is a man;s confidence that turns me on.

Plus not all women want big dicks and tall guys! Someone will come along, promise, but be positive and not negative, ok

Purry {=}

Purry


David_Rizal replies on 7/1/2006 6:34 am:
I sure hope so.
Thanks, Purry

manseeker1069 34F

7/1/2006 6:27 am

Having a small dick has nothing to do with women not likeing asians, its how good you work it. I had my chance to be with an asian, but he backed off. he was scared that I wouldn't enjoy being with him. Quit thinking about the size of your dick and start thinking about how to change that low self esteem.


David_Rizal replies on 7/1/2006 7:25 am:
Sorry to hear that he backed out. I wonder why he thought you wouldn't enjoy being with him?
I have a friend who's physically the exact opposite of me. White European, six-foot-one, a fairly lean 220lbs, with a huge pecker. He recently ended a relationship because he couldn't open up. He tried to make up and break up via text messages, for goodness sake. So I personally know of someone who supposedly has "the right package" still struggle with feelings of inadequacy.
Confidence is king.

TnWitchyWoman 56F
6852 posts
7/1/2006 7:19 am

I know I'm a few thousand miles away and that's really not going to be of much help at all, but humor me here with a little "exercise". You've told us what you aren't...all qualities you *think* are against you. We all have things we lack, but we've ALL got something precious to give someone. So tell me, what do you think you have to give that a woman would want? Make me a nice LONG list. I bet you'll find you have more to offer vs. what you think you're lacking!
Lori


David_Rizal 37M

7/6/2006 9:06 am

I've never been any good at "selling" myself. It's harder than you think for me to think of something good to offer a woman. You might want me to make a long list, but I'm still stuck on reason number 1!
Perhaps I can think of a few things that would make me a good FRIEND, but nothing special that would make a woman want me.


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