Very LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG day...  

Da_penetrator2 33M
26 posts
3/22/2006 10:42 pm

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Very LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG day...


OK, so i've accepted the worse scenario, but there's still a small light in the tunnel. My dad went for tests and was admitted in hospital, see my previous posts or magazine questions, if you don't know why.

In short, he was diagnosed with lung cancer, and went to hospital for treatment and further tests. I was on the verge of a serious breakdown, but my friends here on this site picked me up when I was down. Sure, there was the odd one out, the prick who picks on people when they are most vulnerable.

So, yesterday, the test results should've been made available but nothing yet. I was wondering, is it normal to have mood swings during this waiting period. I've been clashing with a lott of people lately because of my mood swings. I'm watvhing over my mother and little brother, they live on a farm between nowhere and elsewhere. Farm attacks have been on the increase this last three months.

O, thank God I have such wonderfull friends at this site....

rm_nawty1974 45M/42F
126 posts
3/23/2006 11:41 am

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))


ArealUnicorn 44F

3/24/2006 6:17 am

I was very sorry to see this happen to an very obviously nice and down to earth person...so I thought I would bring some fun to you...tag your it...see Tagged by a hottie.... or just click on my blog...have fun...


SensuousWoman3 55F
3106 posts
3/24/2006 8:43 am

Darlin, during a time like this, all the things you stop and ponder as to whether or not they are normal---probably are and are probably the most normal at that—unless, of course, you suddenly have developed a hankering for the goat that lives next door—now THAT is NOT normal, Da---but you already knew that! ~~wink & smile~~

It is okay to feel a wide and full range of emotions—I guess you could call that mood swings. It is as though one day you were strolling along, minding your own business when *POOF* somebody took your whole life, tossed it in a brown paper sack, shook it up for all it was worth, and then dumped the contents out onto the ground. And today you find yourself to be a Humpty Dumpty of sorts—will all the King’s horses and all the King’s men ever be able to put DA back together again? No. But you can.

The day will arrive in the not too distant future when you decide that while you are still scared and unsure and wondering why in the hell life doesn’t give you a manual complete with a chapter on how to deal with life events such as this, you will pick yourself up, dust yourself off and endeavor to carry on—one day at a time. And that is all you can do.

Be wary, however, Da, not to use this life event as an excuse to treat others carelessly and conduct yourself in less than an upstanding manner. Life’s hardships do not give us a license to hurt, wound or maim. May peace be yours.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr


flagg134 36M
1582 posts
3/24/2006 6:04 pm

The serenity prayer SW3 words to live by. I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. I am very glad to hear that you are accepting things and enjoying what you have. Just keep strong and stay the man you are even helping me out when your down. I wish I could return the favor ten fold. You are handling this admirably and with grace my prayers are with you.

Stay strong

Flagg


curvymeli 39F

3/24/2006 10:43 pm

Da, I just wanted to extend my prayers and love to you and yours in such a difficult time.
My father fell ill last year with a fatal brain tumor and I know how shocked you must feel and how this must seem very impossible right now. Daddy and I were very close so it was natural for me to stay by his side constantly, but I too had to be strong for my family's sake. Many of them were out of town for the most part and so I would hold the phone to his ear and call them daily so they could talk to him, and when he was unable to be understood I was able to translate his mutterings for them.I was lucky to be able to sleep at the hospital with my father; I wouldn't take back one second of time I spent just holding his hand. (Daddy had glioblastome nultiformae, a very aggressive type of malignant brain tumor)

My point is that I never gave myself the chance to break down for my family, and I know they have appreciated that. But don't hold yourself back from telling your father everything, he will appreciate every second of it, even if you have to cry. Let him know all the things that you never would have thought to say, all the little things he may have taught you like how to properly tie a tie or something, and don't be ashamed of expressing any of it. More than anything I am thankful that I got to say those things and that I didn't bite my tongue, even when I wanted to. I wrote a blog about dealing with Daddy's illness and if you wanted to check it out the address is www.turnsofawieland.blogspot.com, but don't feel obligated by any means.

Right now my mother is undergoing chemo for a recurrance of breast cancer, she had an emergency double mastectomy just 2 months after Daddy passed. Even though we have never been very close I have made a point to express to her what special things she has taught me, too, even though her prognosis is very good, I am trying not to take her or anyone in my life for granted anymore.

AdultFriendFinder has also provided a wonderful place for me to heal after this ordeal. I had hermited myself quite nicely and through the people I have met here I was able to get myself back out in the world again, not only dating but making lasting friendships.

God bless you and yours, you will be in my prayers,
Meli


Da_penetrator2 33M
18 posts
3/27/2006 10:41 pm

    Quoting SensuousWoman3:
    Darlin, during a time like this, all the things you stop and ponder as to whether or not they are normal---probably are and are probably the most normal at that—unless, of course, you suddenly have developed a hankering for the goat that lives next door—now THAT is NOT normal, Da---but you already knew that! ~~wink & smile~~

    It is okay to feel a wide and full range of emotions—I guess you could call that mood swings. It is as though one day you were strolling along, minding your own business when *POOF* somebody took your whole life, tossed it in a brown paper sack, shook it up for all it was worth, and then dumped the contents out onto the ground. And today you find yourself to be a Humpty Dumpty of sorts—will all the King’s horses and all the King’s men ever be able to put DA back together again? No. But you can.

    The day will arrive in the not too distant future when you decide that while you are still scared and unsure and wondering why in the hell life doesn’t give you a manual complete with a chapter on how to deal with life events such as this, you will pick yourself up, dust yourself off and endeavor to carry on—one day at a time. And that is all you can do.

    Be wary, however, Da, not to use this life event as an excuse to treat others carelessly and conduct yourself in less than an upstanding manner. Life’s hardships do not give us a license to hurt, wound or maim. May peace be yours.

    God grant me the serenity
    to accept the things I cannot change;
    courage to change the things I can;
    and wisdom to know the difference.
    Living one day at a time;
    Enjoying one moment at a time;
    Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
    Taking, as He did, this sinful world
    as it is, not as I would have it;
    Trusting that He will make all things right
    if I surrender to His Will;
    That I may be reasonably happy in this life
    and supremely happy with Him
    Forever in the next.
    Amen.

    --Reinhold Niebuhr

Thanks for your wonderfull words of prayer, I took it into my heart and there it will stay.

Thanks again.

***DA***


Da_penetrator2 33M
18 posts
3/27/2006 10:43 pm

    Quoting flagg134:
    The serenity prayer SW3 words to live by. I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. I am very glad to hear that you are accepting things and enjoying what you have. Just keep strong and stay the man you are even helping me out when your down. I wish I could return the favor ten fold. You are handling this admirably and with grace my prayers are with you.

    Stay strong

    Flagg
Flagg, don't worry about not being around. I know you are thinking of this the whole time, and just seeing your responses is helping me in a way I can't explain. Hope you feel better.

***DA***


flagg134 36M
1582 posts
3/28/2006 10:52 pm

Thats easy just put up a post listing like this one. Then find six peoples blogs and like the person who tagged you did to you. Tag them and have them visit your blog and read the post have fun by the way. If you want to put up there pics just use the tool bar with the photo type in there handle.

Have fun

Flagg


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