My last M&G  

Da_Lone_Elf 50M
29 posts
5/27/2006 1:42 pm

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My last M&G


That's right I said my last M&G. Didn't think I would to any M&Gs soon for several reasons, but specfically invited to one that just ended this morning. I don't think it went quite as planned for those that invited us, & it certainly didn't go as I had hoped. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed seeing my freind that made the invite, I greatly appreciate what was done on our behalf. I also enjoyed getting together with some old friends & making some new.

But I have decided that the way things have gone for me personally at the last 2 M&Gs I have attended, that is no longer worth while for me to go to the expense of driving a great distance, & spending the night. To hang out with a few friends, even with the enjoyable chat & joking around. I don't have a problem with Da Wench getting to play, after all that is why we are here. What I have a problem with is while she plays I cannot. I can no longer go to just set & watch either the same favorite few men or the never seen before be taken off to the private rooms, or just taken for all to see, when all I get is teased then cast aside, when someone new or "better" comes along.

For those of you that I consider my friends, please do not attempt to change my mind. I had my doubts before this weekend, & was told I needed to face my demons. Well I faced my demons, and found them to be nearly as real as I feared, and the pain they cause is something I can do without.

Other things are bothering me too, & I am growing increasingly less enthused by this whole site, so for those few that come to my blog, I just want to say thank you but don't expect a whole lot of new posts from me. I have enjoyed writing my stories, but I cannot seem to get inspired to finish any more. If any of you would like to see more of my work it might help if you let me know.

Very seriously

Da Elf

fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
5/27/2006 4:59 pm

Ok Elf, hun.....I would hate to see you walk away completely right now. Please consider just taking a break from the m&g's for a while and then trying again. I am sorry you had such a bad experience both this time and the last time(which was when I was there...thought you enjoyed that m&g). It pains me to see you hurt in such a way.

And of course I love your stories and you better keep writing them and come here hun I'll inspire you to write great things...lmao.

As for trying to change your mind......sorry I know you ask that we not try but I can't help but try. I would hate to loose what few chances I have to see you. But ultimately it's your decision and I will stand by whatever you decide.

To the people who caused elf this pain and frustration.....shame on you....he is a very sweet and understanding man that deserves better than to be treated like he was.

Hugs & Kisses to ya Elf.

Fuzzy


~~Fuzzy~~


Da_Lone_Elf 50M

5/27/2006 7:58 pm

Thank You My dear Fuzzy the time I shared with you was truely wonderful, if cut too short by other demands. As I stated above the coversations such were good to have had, but when it was all said a done, I felt I was not made to be as welcome as I felt before.

About seeing you again, we will have to see. For the chance to do what we did not before I might be convinced to make an appearance just for you. But change my mind as a whole I'm afraid you cannot do. I am not leaving this site or our group, I'm stepping back. My emotions right now are too ragid for me write my stories of lust, that at this moment I cannot share.

Coming to see you I would love to do, as we have discussed in the past. I am still hoping a trip can be arranged.

Thank You Again for the kind words, I greatly appreciate them.

Hugs & Kisses back to ya Fuzzy

Da Elf


rm_DaLustyWench 56F
4 posts
5/28/2006 8:16 am

i love you my sweetie you know that and i will support you in anything u do maybe your right stepping back for a little while maybe it is a good thing .
i love u always and forever
krissy


LonesomeDad77 57M
2 posts
5/28/2006 11:02 pm

Elf, I can relate to everything you have said. It is too bad that it ends up that way. I have wanted to go to other m & g's but have not made connections for one reason or another, but then figure all i missed was watching others have the fun while i sit and am ignored. I guess it is kinda like planet of the apes. The natural roles are all reversed from what is thought to be normal society. I am not trying to sit on the pity pot but some of the real hearted people get cast aside for a quick few minutes of pleasure. Dont get me wrong I have nothing against those actions. I know it is the womans right to always say no and all that good stuff. Just yes it would be nice to at least get off the bench and in the game once in awhile. I know I am probably signing my own death warrent by agreeing with you but yuo are right in what you say.

Steve


Da_Lone_Elf 50M

5/30/2006 12:01 pm

Thank you Lonesome,

I'm glad I'm not the only one who sees it that way, I'm sorry that you have had to experience it also.

I'm not trying to have a pity party either, just simply saying things as I have seen them as they relate to me. I simply used this blog as a way to vent & express my feelings in a place the others involved will probably not even see. If I wanted pity I would have posted this in the group threads.

It is a shame that just because we are not as vocal or as visible as the others, that they assume that we cannot satisfy them as well as those making themselves the center of attention. As I cannot change my personality to the more type "A", I have simply chosen not to put myself into a the position to be in this pain anymore.

Expressing your true feelings, should not mean a death sentence for you here, but think about it this way. If it does, for just agreeing with me, what has this post done for me other than doing the same or worse for me?

Take heart there is still a chance for each of us even if we cannot see it now.

Da Elf


Kittypurrfectt 51F

5/30/2006 7:11 pm

I understand what U R saying, We don't feel da urge to play w/anyone other than our 'partner' at this time.
Sorry it didna work out. We enjoyed having U both as our 'guests'.
Thanks for sharing da puter & toys.

You guys R wonderful as friends,

Da Kitty & Mighty8


ohcurious14 59M
1683 posts
5/30/2006 8:44 pm

Elf, Even I can understand what your going thru and will say I've been there myself on many occasions for many different reasons as well. Even though it's not often talked about, I feel many of the women might perhaps be intimidated by the fact you are part of a couple. I've had that feelig on many occasions. But that is not the only reason either. There are so many possible factors involved as to why you have chosen to not attend. I hope in no way, shape or form, that I haved caused anything to sway your decision. I will acknowledge that the mere fact that you even posted this took alot of intestinal fortitude to do and I know it was no snap decision. perhaps just a layoff for a few M & G's will change your mind. If it don't still know you have many friends, and all should support your decision either way. I know this was very difficult to decide on and it wears heavily on you.I'll continue to stay in contact via chatroom,email or IM . Ohc


Da_Lone_Elf 50M

5/30/2006 10:24 pm

Thank you Kitty, you were only a very small part of my decision, you at least tried to play with us, even if it didn't work as we would have liked, it was other things other people that finally made up my mind.

Thank You OhC I'm glad you understand how I feel, to at least some extent, but being one of the favored few I really don't think you fully do. I don't blame you or hold anything against you, you are just being yourself at these things. I can't blame you bacause the ladies would rather spend time with you then to talk with me. I truly enjoyed finally getting the chance to talk with you & your lovely partner NB when she finally arrived. It seems at past M&Gs we never got much of a chance for that, & it will be something I will miss by not going anymore. If there are ones closer to my home where I can stop in for a visit I may, I just don't feel I can do the long distant ones & spend the night anymore. I may change my mind in the future but I really doubt it.


Frederick2223 69M
98 posts
6/1/2006 10:01 am

Elf, I can identify with your feeling. I've felt the same, or that folks came with meetings arranged before. Another wa of looking at it (no consolation, but perhaps even more painful), I wonder whether what we have felt is perhaps what women in the ordinary "swim of things" find that they get passed over and begin wondering (eg., is it my weight, my breath, these clothes, too short or too tall). I would guess that there are many women who can identify with this feeling, except perhaps in an even more painful manner. Myself, and only for myself, if there's a m&g that I can get to, I will.

Thanks Elf for sharing something that I did not have the courage to say. And hope to talk with you some time in the future.


4ruahardbody 46F

6/2/2006 9:56 am

reading what you have said, what exactly is a meet and greet anyway? i know on the surface, what happens.
would a sucessful m&g have you or anyone else having sex with each individual who is there???
i don't understand i guess, the way you describe it, our get together's are just "mind fucks???"
oh sigh, i don't know elf, if you want to talk to someone i would say, talk to them, express what you want, even if that means talking in front of someone else; the worst you could get is a no.

i hope that makes sense, i wanted to say something, but this sounds kind of dumb,
4r


Da_Lone_Elf 50M

6/2/2006 12:39 pm

4r, TY for your words, I don't think they are dumb. maybe we entirely understand each other but that is fine, the main point comes across well enough.

Please don't completely misunderstand me I did enjoy much of what I experienced, including talking with you finally, it seems 1 thing or another at previous M&Gs kept us from talking. Believe me it's nothing you did or said that made me feel the way I do.

I will do my best to take your words to heart, but at least for now I will have to stay with decision & not attend any more of the long distance stay over night M&Gs. I may make an appearance if travel isn't too far and my schedule permits, there are several people I would regret not seeing again, including yourself regardless of whether there is a shared sexual attraction or not. (Which honestly I don't know if there is or isn't. I know you are a very lovely woman, but as yet do not you well enough to know if it goes beyond just the physical attraction.)

Thanks again
**HUGS**
Da Elf


rm_bbw294 41F

7/26/2006 11:31 am

Is it that serious.


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