Once in a Lifetime  

CuriousAries67 49F
182 posts
10/9/2005 7:17 pm

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Once in a Lifetime


Here I sit in serenity and seclusion, away from everything that touches my day to day reality. What a sweet and welcome break from the race this wee rat runs...

I'm visiting for the weekend with my oldest and dearest and her family. How different her life is. How different both are lives are from what we'd imagined in college.

Somehow, we managed to switch dreams. She's the one with the husband, house and children. I am the one with the career.

Neither life is perfect. I certainly don't envy her day to day existence, nor she mine. But I do find myself wondering, "Well, how did I get here?"

I am not complaining, merely contemplating. My life is a work in progress that progresses well. I have been and done things that I had never dreamed possible. I have met people along the way who have touched my soul and illuminated parts of myself of which I had been entirely ignorant.

For the most part, I am content. And yet, there is a yearning, a searching which calls to me in the quiet moments when the only sounds are the ticking of the wall clock and the breathing of sleeping children. Did I make the wrong choice somewhere down the line? Was my original dream a once in a lifetime opportunity?

Oldsalt554 66M

10/10/2005 4:46 am

Wow. This is the first time that I have read your blog and I want to write something but can't exactly find the words. You seem to have accomplished much in your life. You have followed your path. There are many. I think that judgment comes from a perceived lack. Are hubby, house and kids really the answer?


CuriousAries67 49F

10/10/2005 7:02 pm

Oldsalt~

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to comment.

No, I don't believe that achieving what I lack is the answer. As I said, I'm not unhappy with my life as it is. I play the "What If" game every now and again; however I do still find myself conflicted on the children part, but that's a story for another day...


MisterPriapus 56M
6980 posts
10/11/2005 3:28 pm

Not all dreams are best realized... I hope to never again to be called upon to answer a complex question clad only in soiled underwear! So much for dreams being wish-fulfillment!

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Been a while since they last let me out into polite society. Resurfacing, catching a breath, & catching up.



And while I got my Broad-Brimmed Pimping Hat on, could I cajole all of y'all to Comment on, Alone In A Cloud? It's probably the best thing that I've written!

Lately...

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