Heartache Reborn  

CuriousAries67 49F
182 posts
10/24/2005 7:50 pm

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Heartache Reborn

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

I was online this weekend, doing some research on kissing for a future post, when I ran across this quote from Neil Gaiman, an English-born American author. I know it came up in my search parameters because the word kiss is buried in the eighth line, but as I read it, it got me thinking.

Yes. I have been in love. It's intoxicating, nauseating, disturbing, and addictive. It scares the hell out of me. I alternately ache for it and never want to feel it again. I've made the best decisions and the worst mistakes of my life based on love. It's confusing, irrational, alluring, and beguiling. I dread the day I meet the man who can penetrate the fortress love forced me to build around my heart and my soul. And yet, I hate to be so guarded.

The J. Geils Band said it best: Love Stinks. Yeah, yeah.

MisterPriapus 56M
6980 posts
10/28/2005 6:05 pm


I'm not sure what I could add... what a powerful posting.



Been a while since they last let me out into polite society. Resurfacing, catching a breath, & catching up.

And while I got my Broad-Brimmed Pimping Hat on, could I cajole all of y'all to Comment on, Alone In A Cloud? It's probably the best thing that I've written!



CuriousAries67 49F

10/29/2005 11:45 am

Mister P. ~ A "Double Wow" with no smart-assed remarks. I am truly amazed and honoured. Thank you for the compliment. It's amazing what the Muse drags up...

CuriousAries67 49F

10/29/2005 11:52 am

Valley ~ I have a friend who refers to the whole thing as "Love Heroin". Once you're hooked, you can't get enough; withdrawal is painful and re-addiction is always a danger. Personally, just a wee dram now and again is about all I can handle... ~Aries

ambidext 48M

11/6/2005 9:18 pm

Try the zen approach.. Just let it be. Emulate Pooh. Enjoy honey, in all it's forms. Worrying about what tomorrow's honey will taste like will ruin your appitite today. And then, tomorrow, you will find yourself repeating the same mistake. Rinse. Lather. Repeat.

That guy you saw on the subway? You know the one... deep blue eyes. Just the right amount of stubble. Perfect look. Go ahead... dream about him.

CuriousAries67 49F

11/7/2005 2:19 pm

Ambidext~ Nice to see you back in commenting mode! Your advice is good stuff. You know, I read the Tao of Pooh[/] back when I was in college. That silly old bear sure had a lot on the ball. Hope all is well with you. ~Aries

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