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I finally figured out how to update my blog,,, neywayz,,, I dont know if I shud make this public,,, but wat the heck,,, who carez,,, well here goes,,,,
few people wanted 2 know why Im acting like a prick and not accepting addyz or even making sense in chat. I just need 2 let all of this ride out.
I cant stop thinking of my dad ever since he passed away end of last year and I been acting weird wit everybody and I cant pretend I am okay wen im not,, so Ive told and I am telling every1 for the time being 2 simply buck off.
Its hard to explain how I feel and I dont expect most of u 2 understand not that I give a penny,,,,Ive been very emotional but at the same time I am stricken with a daze and none of it is real. I was his little pumpkin,,,, and now he'z gone.
I kind of miss him still and I wanted 2 get out wit friends 4 a change but then again I think about how much I like being alone 4 now.
I miss u dad,,, a lot!!!! I know u know that,,,, I wish my friends lived near by,, it wud make things easier.
I am really calm now,,,, having said all that I mean I still do get in my tasteless craziness sumtimes but its not really the same,,, I get annoyed so easily,,, I don't want to change but I guess no 1 cud have foreseen that,,,, not even me I cant think of how I cud've possibly kept my life unchanged.
for those of u who read this,,,, I am not expecting a response,,,,u don't really have 2,,,,,,, but neyway, feel free 2 spew ur wise or alternativly ur lame azz comments if it wud make u feel ney gud...
but please don't come at me wit "Yeaa let's meet up and do sumthing fun 2 cheer u up" ..... ha ha! thas not gona work! :]
nuff said....taaa xx
10/2/2005 2:18 pm
I doubt that coming at you with the lets get drunk and bitch about how shit this world is would work either but the offers there.Its alright to be changed by this.|
Noone knows how you feel.It doesnt always get better,We all deal with death differently.
Just remember people offer platitudes because they dont know how else to react.Dont blame them or hate them for it.Then when the time is right talk to then so they can understand or at least try too.They arent your friends for nothing.
10/3/2005 12:34 pm
IdealSmile has made some very valuable points here.
I just wanted to add that I'm sorry for your loss. I don't know what I'd do if either of mine went - but I do know I'd emerge a stronger person for it. As I'm sure you're already becoming.
Have faith... and take comfort that he is guiding you from another place.