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Where's Chin Been?
Where's Chin Been?
As I was driving home from work tonight, windows rolled up and the heat of the......heater keeping the crisp night air at bay I thought about my blog. I've wanted to post for a couple of days now but didn't have anything really important to say, so I left it be. Tonight I realized how fortunate I am to simply be me, and instead of writing with a point I'm just going to go stream of conscious style. A little update from the world of Chin. For all of you admirers out there [SweetDarlinAngel] this is for you, seeing as how you've been my one and only real admirer on here (at least that I can see).
The other day I talked about how frustrated I was about people on this site. One person in particular gained mention b/c of her suggestion to change my profile. Appears we all still have our guard up, even on here. We have since reconciled and I am currently looking forward to a little person on person make-up time. Happy ending there.
Today I was greeted with an e-mail where a female member of the species informed me she was going to steal part of my profile. How's that for funny. One's trash is another's treasure. I asked her why she would go and do such a thing, to which she replied that we were so alike. Upon extended conversation (man I love Yahoo!) I can say that she is the closest I have come to meeting a female version of myself. Can't wait 'till I meet her! This would answer that ago old question of would you really fuck yourself if you had the chance!
Someone asked me if this site offered me everything I had expected. I had to think about this one for a while, but tonight I have to say that while this site is providing me the outlet that I have always wanted to be "bad" I'm still not completely satisfied. I've made some new friends, had a new experience or two, but I still haven't gotten 100% of what I want. granted, from the first day I joined this site what I want has shifted dramatically. See previous blogs.
Finally, I am very proud of myself today. I recently took a new job and went from being the biggest fish in the pond to being a little fish in the ocean. The new job has brought all kinds of drama that I hate, and new "ways of doing things" that make no sense (GO CORPORATE!!!). Today I had finally taken all I could and offered my opinion on the matter(s). Not to worry. I was a manager at my last job and a damn fine one. All opinions were offered creatively and constructively. No criticisms without suggestions for improvement. Regardless of the outcome I felt very good about myself for stepping up when no one else would. After the meeting someone even came up to me and thanked me for finally putting to words what they had been feeling for quite some time. It's in my nature. I throw all cards out on the table and if you don't like it then stay away. Vote for Chin!!! Voice of the Little Man!!!!!
Still a lot going on in my life, although sometimes I feel like I'm not moving at all. My personality is so driven that even I get on my nerves sometimes. I realized that I REALLY don't know how to relax the other day when I went to Z Spa (those of you in Louisville, if you haven't been GO!!!). I had to get there early so they could give me a tour of the place before I was spoiled. They put me in a room with subdued lighting, tranquil music and fresh fruit. The only thing I could think about was: Come on already!!! Let's get this show started!! I'm going to go again and make a day out of it and this time I'm going to do my best just to go with the flow and take it all in. Funny; I need a back massage after waiting to get a back massage!
Guess that's about it for now. I know there wasn't any mention of me getting my dick sucked or fucking some girl in a public place, but those blogs will come. I am a complete freak in the sheets, but just b/c I am doesn't mean that there isn't any other side to me. I've controlled myself this long (OK, I can't say controlled, b/c ex-girlfriends know how it is and STILL come back looking for more!) so a little bit longer won't hurt. Peace.
10/7/2005 6:36 pm
it's not very often that you get advice to do whatever you need to do not to get sucked....|
politics are just evil,
we take our petty crap in our personal lives and channel it into petty crap in our work lives..manipulation, blame, climbing the corporate ladder at any costs.....sacrificing decency, morality, pride and honor....then on the flip side of it all....you have the mousecomplainers......the ones that bitch and moan in a whisper.....and when the opportunity comes for them to speak their minds.....all of a sudden they're silent and keep to themselves.....until no brass is around....then they once again infect everyone with their bitching and complaining...maybe i'm too inexperienced to know better but i tend to say too much...but i have learned not to say it until i'm asked.....i say speak up chin.......open those big beautiful lucious yummy lips of yours......um ok wait i forgot what the hell i was talking about...........oh yeah.....just say it....what the hell....be the whale in a creek....
as far as that chick trying to steal your profile......i say you should cuff her and torture her with candle wax and feathers.........(please)
12/19/2005 3:01 pm
Wow first of all you underestimate youself into thinking that I am the only admirer you have. Perhaps I am just the only one who has had anything to say lately. Sometimes your admirers stop by read your thoughts and feelings and can't think of anything helpful, enlightening or even uplifting to write so instead they send a thought your way and hope for the best for you.
I on the other hand will usually stop by read your words and regardless of the weight of my response will at least drop a line or two to let you know that I am thinking of you. And regardless of how ridiculous my lateset scheme to heat you under the collar may have become, I will still attempt to at least say something to make you smile. However futile it may be.
Chin, you are a very sensual man. Reading your blogs shows any woman that she would be blessed to spend an hour tangled between the sheets with you. You are very intellegent man. I'd love to have an oppotunity to communicate with you beyond an exchange in the blogville arena once or twice a month. Alas, schedules and lives sometimes get in the way of the ability to do such things but perhaps someday we will be able to have a conversation that doesn't involve a week's worth of waiting for the response... or perhaps not...
Don't sell yourself short for anything, let it be this site or the values of what you think women want. Believe me, in the long run, you are going to find happiness in being yourself and you will find the right woman to find happiness in you as well.
Kudos and congrats on the bigger water that you swim in now. I hope that you find yourself using your skills to thier fullest extent. Don't let the size of the ocean make you feel as though your experience or your knowledge won't benefit the corporate world. From you have said already, you have proven yourself to be an asset in the making. You are what they need, even if they don't know it yet.
Keep your head up Chin, you know that I'll always be your biggest fan...