Turmoil in Paradise  

Cdub2U 61M
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1/16/2006 8:30 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Turmoil in Paradise

No this is not about sex!

Today was another one of those days where life and my biorhythms were not in harmony. Oh sure it was a great day, business wise, I “Exceeded Expectations” ... as usual. However, I have a feeling that my life is fucked, I cannot get out and have the fun that I want, giving me a sense of confinement.

For the past couple of weeks I have been feeling like the Tiger you see walking back and forth in his artificial habitat. Wanting to run but knowing there were brick walls behind the scrubs.

Could it be the large financial expenditures I need to make, too bad I am not the US Government ‒ I would simply print more money! I need to spend thousands and I don’t even have a buck fifty to my name (well perhaps $1.50 but not much more). Alternatively, is it the personal commitments that I have not been able to honor? Telling someone I would do something then not being able to do what I promised tends to eat me up inside. Part of my inner Adult that takes responsibility for my actions rearing his head at all the wrong times.

Ah, to be irresponsible and simply let go!

Cw


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