Color Me Ambivalent  

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
370 posts
10/22/2005 5:36 pm

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Color Me Ambivalent

I must admit I was worried. While I had bi-curious fantasies for several years, the reality was fast approaching and frankly, I wasn’t sure how I would react. One extreme: I’d swear off women, go gay, and start marching in St. Patrick’s Day parades. She was genuinely concerned about this. The other extreme: I’d be unable to perform. She offered to pick up the slack if I “checked out”. Either way, all the worrying took a toll on my libido.

When the moment came, her eyes had that “you asked for it” look as she licked his hard shaft. I hope no one saw the stark terror in mine. As I got closer to the action she continued to encourage me with “come hither” looks until I mustered enough courage to take my first lick. I thought to myself: So, this is what it is like to be a cock sucker! A new perspective on life.

I really didn’t know what to expect, and every loving lady already knows this, but, for the record. The damn things are a mouthful. My initial impression as I slid his cock into my mouth was “it ain’t gonna fit”. My second impression was the head was much softer than I expected in contrast to the hardness of the shaft. Maybe this is what they mean by “soft chewy center”.

Before I knew it, I was doing him solo. I felt like the student pilot whose instructor bailed out before the first landing. Before I went into a total panic I felt her soft lips on my hard cock. Reassured, I thought, I can do this.

It didn’t take long for me to realize that I had no idea how to please a man orally. I thought beforehand that it would be easy. I’m a guy, he’s a guy. I know the equipment and the lay of the land. Just do what comes naturally, right? Wrong. Truth is, he’s moaning and I’m thinking: What the hell do I do now? Good thing she’s doing me, because in desperation I copy her moves. She licks. I lick. She sucks. I suck. She nibbles, I nibble. She strokes. I stroke. If the truth be told, I sucked at sucking. Damn good thing I’m sitting beside the smartest girl in the class during this test!

After a little while my neck starts to ache, my lips are sore, and my jaw needs a rest. He’s still moaning and I need to take five for coffee and a cigarette. Can’t stop now, it would be rude, break the mood, stop the flow. Suddenly I realize that even oral sex is stacked against women. The position and the effort required is a lot harder (stop with the puns) than licking her clitoris, and did I mention that it’s a hell of a lot harder to breathe with a cock down your throat!

Gentlemen, stop right now, get down on your knees and THANK your lover for orally pleasing you. She deserves it. Don’t believe me? Then you get down there, try it, and then tell me if she hasn’t been taking more than her fair share of the “load”. I’m almost ready to admit we’re even on the whole multi-orgasmic thing. We get a blow job; she gets five or six orgasms. That seems about right to me now or maybe still a little on the short side for her.

It was an experience, but… but… but… not quite as expected. On the one hand, I did, well, OK. On the other hand, it wasn’t the mind-blowing experience I was hoping to achieve. I chalked it up to lack of experience. No doubt, my fellatio skills are severely lacking. But as she said later, “What did you expect?” I guess I expected to become an instant expert. I wasn’t. Just goes to show:

Even cock-suckers need practice.

rm_joeyrenn 65M

10/22/2005 6:25 pm

but did you enjoy it. Were you aroused by having that cock in your mouth. Did you finish him off? Hey you and the misses can practice on me if you like.

hotiowastud2 53M

10/22/2005 7:57 pm

Very good blog...check mine out for my first cock experience. The head is unbelievably soft. I think you needed to get him early to get the cum out...very nice!

rm_mwm34 48M

10/23/2005 6:04 am

Don't be so hard (no puns please) on yourself. The first time you went down on a woman you probably didn't know how to do her either. If he was moaning and not complaining, you probably weren't doing all that bad. And you improvised well to copy her, way to think quickly off your feet! (lol)
You are right, practice makes perfect, so just keep trying.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/23/2005 6:25 am


Thanks so much for the offer. We'll keep that in mind.

The first time I was so nervous it really wasn't about "enjoyment" or "arousal". However, with practice I have come to enjoy it. Aroused? Yes. But more so before thinking about it than while doing it.

I have not finished anyone off, although there have been moments when I thought (worried?) that it was about ready to blow! But there's so much to do in a three-some that you quickly move on to other things (grin). Still on my "to do" list though.

luv2licku2cum 53M

10/23/2005 10:05 am

It sounds like you did great! and how lucky to have a partner open and willing enough to lick you through you fantasy. Did you let him suck you? if so what was that like? Thanks again for sharing with all us undersexed and envious married bastards.

rm_irishfan8103 66M

10/23/2005 1:20 pm

Great reading. Well written. Do you do college papers too?

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/23/2005 2:47 pm


Thanks for the advise. We'll keep it in mind when the time cums.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/23/2005 2:48 pm


I've had additional experience since this blog was written, and you are right. It gets better with practice.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/23/2005 2:51 pm


I am very lucky. She has been encouraging and understanding about my bi-fantasies. I don't think many can.

Yes, he did, and it was subtly different from a woman, but I can't put my finger on what it was exactly. Very nice, but oral is always very nice.

1funguy59 57M

10/23/2005 5:55 pm

Always be careful what you wish for, you might get it. It really is an interesting experience the first few times. The 2 of you are so lucky.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/23/2005 7:18 pm

    Quoting rm_irishfan8103:
    Great reading. Well written. Do you do college papers too?

A great teacher once said, write what you know. We are! Much easier than college papers. And much more fun.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
10/24/2005 9:08 am

    Quoting 1funguy59:
    Always be careful what you wish for, you might get it. It really is an interesting experience the first few times. The 2 of you are so lucky.

Thanks so much for your comments. We have been VERY lucky, each of our new friends have been kind, considerate, and FUN. And hopefully, we given (to them) as much as we've received. We'd like to think so

Best wishes on your own adventures ...

discreet_fun65 51M

11/12/2005 8:33 am

Thanks for sharing,

I hope your experiences get better and more relaxing as you move forward in your adventures. You are both lucky to have each other, and to be understanding to each others needs, wants, desires, and wishes. Open communicaton and the desire to provide for your partner, will keep your relationship strong, and top notch.

Oh NO !!!!!!!! From reading your post, I hope that the words "All work and no play", are also going to pertain to fun in the bedroom also.

Bye for now,

rm_7iron4fun 62M

12/4/2005 2:19 am

What a turn on, you guys are living the fantasies many of us have not had the pleasure of experiencing. Please keep sharing with us.

CantonOhCouple 60M/60F
553 posts
12/4/2005 9:30 pm

discreet_fun65, We assure you ... its NOT work!

7iron4fun, Thanks for stopping by and commenting. We plan on continuing to share our adventures. Not only the erotic facts and fantasies, but the human side as well.

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