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The EX that never stops...
The EX that never stops...
We've all had them. It's as if they don't understand. They keep going and going and going, like that damn bunny! THE EX THAT DOESN'T STOP!
There are two kinds of breakups: Number One, We need to break up but I still want to be friends. And Number Two: We are breaking up and I don't want to talk to you again! More then likely we've all had them both. It's not that hard to 'play by the rules' after a break up as long as it's the same number for both of you. If it is a different type of break up for each person, that's when it gets really hard.
Well, my last one was different for both of us. She still wanted to be friends and I don't. I loved her way to much and let myself get hurt REAL bad, and I am afraid that if I am around her again I will fall back into the old ways. So I told her that I need time, but I don't think we can be friends anymore. She said she understood, she knew she hurt me more then anything before. But it seems as if she keeps talking to me.
After we broke up we seperated our bank accounts and spilt apart our cell phone plans. Disolved all the stuff we had 'together'. We weren't married or anything, we just knew each other for 5 years prior so things went real fast, TOO FAST.
It's been three months, four weeks since the last time we talked, and she IM'ed me last night. I wasn't at my computer when she did, when I got to it she had typed "I know your idle, I just wanted to see how you were doing. Talk to you later. Bye." She was able to change from 'I'm in love with you' to 'I love you like a brother'. I in the other hand went from 'I love you so much I want to spend the rest of my life with you' to 'you hurt me so much I can't be around you anymore'.
But she keeps trying to talk to me. I don't know what to do. Some people would say that she still has feelings, I would agree, but I can't afford to think that way. She has another BF now. I think they got together about 3 weeks after we broke up. I've seen them together. He is the complete opposite of myself. Tatooed, drives a bike, doesn't go to school, goes to bars and parties, type of guy. Where I, always wear dress shirts, go for electrical engineering, read the Wall Street Journal, like a good jazz club, and stuff like that.
Maybe she just needed a change. We were quite different from the beginning. Different personallities, different likes, quite different. I'm a charmer and I think I 'made' her fall in love with me. Not intentionaly but I think that's what happened.
Anyway, I don't quite know what to do now. I don't know if I should ignor her, or just flat out tell her I can't talk to her and I will call her if I ever can again. I still have feelings for her, but I don't quite know what they are.
Well I think I'm going to check out who's online. More about my delema later.