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wouldn't YOU be frustrated??
wouldn't YOU be frustrated??
okay, i have tried very hard to respect a certain level of not talking about my marital issues in this blog, because they are not mine alone, and ... well, anyway, i'm about to fuck that notion up right now.
it was a couple nights ago, in fact i think it was easter. my wife, who is a fantastic flirt but has essentially zero libido, actually suggests a sexual situation. we are preparing for the big family dinner, and we've been having a great time, playful, fun, etc. She tells me that if we can get all the baking done in time (really does need to get done), she wants to give me a blow job before we leave. I am totally turned on, and we redouble our efforts in the kitchen. this is an even bigger deal because she generally dislikes oral sex altogether. not a fan of giving it, won't let me give her any, either. apparently 'its gross' -- its depressing, and until my first affair, i was becoming convinced that i must have just lost all ability to be interesting in the bedroom. good god i'm a rambler. anyway, the food was done just barely in time, so we ran out the door to our party, and i dealt with my blue balls as usual. but after all was done for the day and we were back at home, she actually brings it up again! at this point i am realizeing that she must have told herself she was going to do this to make a special day out of this holiday. I am aroused all over again, and she is playing with me for a while, and she is hilarious when playing, and i love it, but when she has started, its all of 30 seconds before she has decided she can't do it and the plan is over. I should expect this by now, but it has never gotten any easier. I think i handle myself well -- i mean, i truly don't want her doing things she is uncomfortable doing -- i want her to enjoy herself, but the jar from wonderful, fun play and build up to nothing is too much.
i am such a whiner. but a marriage is not supposed to be that way, right? having boring sex 3 or 4 times a year is completely fucked up.
i wrote this for no good reason. just to let it out of my brain, i guess. i'm sure it reads like i'm looking for pity or reassurance or some such thing, but i swear its not my intention.
what this situation calls for is a smoking hot all-night fuck in an amazing threesome with johnny depp and kiera knightly. can't go wrong throwing in angie jo, either.
alternatively, and far more likely, it will be another really long late-night walk with the dogs to clear my head.
4/27/2006 7:47 am
I think everybody would be frustrated in that situation, your wife too. She obviously got herself worked up to do something that you would enjoy and realised she couldn't go through with it in the end. Perhaps if its something she really doesn't enjoy next time she suggests doing that you could subtly suggest something else that she would be more comfortable with. I'm sure you would get more pleasure from whatever the interaction with your wife happened to be no matter how small if you knew she was comfortable with it. At least you know she wants to please you she just needs that support and gentle encouragement to enable her to do so.|