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Searching for guidance
Searching for guidance
Hi, I’m like my nickname, I’m a curious shy girl. I have a boyfriend I’m in a loving relationship with, but I have always felt I wanted more, like I was missing out on fun. We have a wild satisfying sex life. We’ve made love in places all over America and on vacations in exotic places. Well, not to exotic, Mexico and the Virgin Islands. I have always fantasized about kissing and making love to another woman. I have found myself looking at girls in the mall and thinking “I’d like to kiss her and run my fingers through her hair.” Well the other night I finally told my boyfriend the truth, I used to joke about the girls in the porno movies we watch, and I told him that I really thought it was hot. I think he thought I was just trying to get him hot but I let it all out, how I wanted to be the girl in the middle and share lesbian kisses. He laughed but then said if I really wanted to I should go for it. We surfed the net together and found this site; I opened an account and answered all the questions as best I could. I just can’t put my picture on the screen, I’m not unattractive, just gutless at the thought of the whole world being able to see me before I find my sea legs for this new life style.
Just the thought of touching another woman or having her touch me is so exciting I can hardly put it into words! I’m going to try, if not now soon. I’m sure this will get easier as I continue to do it. I’m going to get my Fella to write in here too. I want people to know that he is behind me 100%, I wouldn’t be cheating, and He is supporting my search and is opening to new things just like I am. We both want to experience new things and learn new techniques.
I’m finding the idea of saying what I’m thinking of sexually here very exciting! I have a lot of friends, but tell me, how do you really bring up the subject of having a lesbian experience or a three some? “Hi Mary, I like your new hair cut, mind if I run my fingers through it and kiss you?” Some how I just don’t see me being able to do that. Or “Tina, remember how you said you thought my boyfriend was cute? Want to hop in bed with us?” I just don’t think I’m that brave. I’m thinking if I meet someone here it would be easier, everyone seems to have so much more experience and have tried so many things! It’s not that my boyfriend would have to be there, he is very willing to let me have private experiences, and would like to be included or at least be there sometimes. No pressure though, he wants me to be free to experiment, to bring home new ideas.
I’m really hoping to let go here in this blog, I figure if I can write my fantasies here, maybe someone who has the same ones will read this and contact me. If for nothing else, just to let me know if I’m on the right track as far as how to get started with meeting someone.