Well, that didn't work very well...  

CB_2 51F
8302 posts
8/25/2006 6:06 am

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8/28/2006 10:41 am

Well, that didn't work very well...

A couple of evenings ago, I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by AdultFriendFinder. Being a natural obsessive anyway, and being on holiday with too much time on my hands, I was beginning to feel it was taking over my life.

Also, I've been a bit targeted by a few Dom guys wanting me to be their Slave. Great lines such as: "it doesn't matter what I look like, because you'll be wearing a blindfold most of the time when we're together" - is it just me, or does that mean he's pig ugly??.

Read my profile, read my blog, guys. Do I sound like a fucking sub?? I don't think so!

But I'll admit they creeped me out a bit.

Anyway, I felt it would be a good idea to have a few days away. I mailed a few of my regular AdultFriendFinder friends to let them know I had not dropped off the face of the planet, and prepared to leave AdultFriendFinder well alone for a week or so.

It didn't go well, as you can see.

The first mistake I made last night was to justify to myself that I just needed to click in to AdultFriendFinder to read my mail. OK, fair enough.

And then I thought I'd see how the tag team story was developing. It's warming up, people, well done. God knows how EconomicKrisis's planned pirate story is going to fit into it, but I await developments with interest.

And of course, I needed to see where I was quoted, though that wasn't wildly interesting, as of course I hadn't posted in the last 24 hours.

Well, once I was that far in, it was going to be impossible not to read my watched blogs.

Luckily for me, only two of them posted yesterday. But one of them was a devastating reality check: apparently I'm only a Rel-Con 5 friend to NakedLnch. (*)

I'm sure I'll recover. One day. But for now, I can't tell you how much that one hurt. Thanks, Perv Boy. I suppose that's marginally better than being a Rel Con 6 "wanna fuck?" contact. But it doesn't feel it.

Now wallowing in a pit of self-loathing, I should have taken that as a cue to leave AdultFriendFinder well alone, and go lick my wounds.

And I did leave the blogs.

Sadly, where I went was the chat forum, specifically the Cyberfantasy forum.

Really not the place someone with exhibitionist tendencies should go, being egged on by someone with obviously voyeuristic tendencies (naughty Maquis), and in my frame of mind last night.

All I can say is: I am glad none of you guys and gals were there to see me orchestrate a gangbang, with Yours Truly as the centre of attention. You'd have been shocked at the slut I revealed myself to be.


I'm only worried that I'm going to find myself back there again tonight.


(*) You'd have to read his blog to understand Rel-Con 6 to Rel-Con 1 levels. Basically, I wasn't as close a friend in his opinion as I thought I was.

Blogito ergo sum.

nikolai_kolosov 38M
1 post
8/25/2006 7:11 am

Try to start a new group of passion.com "friends" and try a different chat group, though it may be tempting, I'm sure inside you have an inner strength to help you stay away from that. Just a little friendly advice. Good luck.

CB_2 replies on 8/26/2006 8:35 am:
Welcome to the blogs, Nikolai. And yes, don't worry, I do have inner strength to recover from this setback! It's just a disappointment when you realise you think more of someone than they do of you. Hurts just as much as with a real life friend.

maverick1255 51M
3953 posts
8/25/2006 11:18 am

Sorry, this place can go from fun to hurtful, very quickly.

LOL!!! Calling CBEvil! Table for one!!! LMAO!! You bad girl!!!

CB_2 replies on 8/25/2006 1:43 pm:
I was a very bad girl last night, Mav. You'd never have been able to look me in the eye again.

Would you like me to send you an invite next time?

dandy6912000 60M/59F
3383 posts
8/25/2006 11:24 am

Well, just have to let them think what they want and go from there. Yes, we all feel we spend to much time on here at times. So anyway hang in here, there is some of us that enjoy your writing and respect your thinking. have a great day Dandy & Snatch

CB_2 replies on 8/25/2006 1:42 pm:
Thanks guys (and Mav). I was obviously feeling a bit oversensitive. Of course, if I had avoided AdultFriendFinder when I said I would, I wouldn't have got myself into a bit of a tizz.

And, let me just stress, there was nothing in NakedLnch's post that I should have taken offence at. It was all about my reaction, not about his comments.

And - on the bright side - if I hadn't got a bit upset, I wouldn't have ended up having so much fun last night either, eh?

Don't worry, Dandy and Snatch, I'll still be blogging away here. It's far too much fun to leave alone.

rm_smosmof2 67M
3240 posts
8/25/2006 3:27 pm

You're almost as much of a mass of self-contradictions as I am.....

CB_2 replies on 8/25/2006 3:59 pm:
Moi? she asks, all wide eyed and innocent...

Intensity4U 52M
7432 posts
8/25/2006 8:41 pm

Hey CB2 It must be the language barrier. Because I'd have to say that from the point you signed on to A.F.F. - almost NONE of that means anything to me at all.

CB_2 replies on 8/26/2006 2:59 am:
Perhaps we should work together on our communicating, Intensity??

ZZ_Todd 59M

8/26/2006 10:45 am

I'm only worried that I'm going to find myself back there again tonight.

uh, what channel is that on?

(Heading down to the tag-team story now... add a few more cents worth!)

CB_2 replies on 8/26/2006 12:55 pm:
I'll publish the listings some other time, Todd!

Seems you've upset a few girlies on your blog. And so have I somehow. WTF?!

expatbrit49 62M

8/26/2006 3:08 pm

well isnt that the point of a fantasy room.... to do or be whatever you want

Thank You for Your Time and Attention

CB_2 replies on 8/26/2006 3:59 pm:
I knew there was a good reason I was there! And why I was there again tonight...

ZZ_Todd 59M

8/26/2006 8:14 pm

Nothing to worry about... really.

CB_2 replies on 8/27/2006 8:28 am:
Oh trust, Todd, I'm not worried...really

CB_2 replies on 8/27/2006 8:28 am:
I meant to say "trust me" - not sure I'd trust Todd

warmandsexy52 64M
13164 posts
8/28/2006 10:22 am

At least with fantasy gangbangs you don't walk funny for 24 hours!

Or did you?

warm xx

CB_2 replies on 8/28/2006 10:41 am:
That would be telling, Warm

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