I have no idea  

ByteChaser2 53M
2834 posts
6/9/2005 8:57 pm

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9/3/2006 9:56 am

I have no idea

It must be a virus or something.

Now I'm blocked... I know I want to write but I don't have clue one what it is.

Man I hate this feeling.

Ok, breathe. Relax. I'll write something.

Oh wait... I'm writing! Just not saying anything. Think something. Say something. anything.

I'm content
I'm happy
I'm amazed
and astounded

I need
I want
I am

yeah... I am. I am that I am.
I think therefor I am... I think
I am Sam
Sam I am
What is this Dr. Seuess???

I am alive and breathing
I am enabled and empowered

and alone

There it is. I'm alone and lonely. No one to be with, no one to talk to. Nothing to do and nowhere to go. Tomorrow will be different but tonight... alone.

It's been a long long time since I was alone. I mean really alone. There's always been an ear to listen. Always a number to dial. Always an email to answer. Not tonight. It's just me. And it's kind of strange. It's downright unsettling.

I need a hug.

I NEED to stop listening to the blues! Is there anything any more depressing than the blues? Wait... I'll answer that:

NO! That's why it's called the blues dumbass.

Shit. So now I'm cussing myself out. At least I'm not talking to myself. Which reminds me... Toot-toot. The town psycho. What a character he was. Walked up and down Rt. 1 picking up bottles and cans, talking to the traffic. Came in to the redemption center every single day - that's where I worked through highschool - and the nut bag would sing to me. I mean this guy would just start crooning like he was at Carnagie Hall. I got so freaked out the first couple times he did that to me. The owner would come out and listen to him bawl old sailing ballads and she'd smile and smile. Come damned near to tears listening to him. She'd clap and hoot and sing right along with him. And she'd add an extra couple dollars to his redemption receipt... and hug him... and send him back on his way down Rt 1. He was the happiest guy I ever saw in my life. Didn't have two pennies to rub together nor a pot to piss in. Hadn't had a bath in a decade or so. But he was the happiest man I ever met in my life. And he'd sing...

Well shit that wasn't hard... Funny I should want to talk about Toot-toot.

Lapkin4u 42F

6/10/2005 11:16 am

Don't fret my dear I am always here for you....even when you just need to ramble. Besides your ramblings make me smile, nice to know I'm not as crazy as I thought.....LOL. XXXXXXX

Sinderlicious 51F
310 posts
6/11/2005 9:56 am

*hugging ya* Blues are natural baby...have a cheery yellow day today and betwixt the two lonesome will just be a passing shade to remember....

Sin like you mean it!

Lapkin4u 42F

6/11/2005 10:46 am

By the way ........love the new pic...you look very stellar! MMMMMMMMM!!!!

Barbiebunny69 43F

6/11/2005 6:55 pm

Sunshine? Someone order up a helping of sunshine? Grinnn

ByteChaser2 53M

6/11/2005 8:56 pm

Oh my GERLZ... Love ya's, every one of ya's!


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