I loved you enough  

ButteryDelight 58F
1961 posts
9/1/2006 11:33 am

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9/13/2006 7:54 am

I loved you enough

My daughter had the day off and so we spent the day together. Believe it or not she still has wedding gift cards that are unused. So, we went to Dillard's and Target. We also took back some gifts that were duplicated.

I had a good time and enjoyed myself just spending time with my daughter. She is special to me and can cheer me up with just a smile or a hug. I look at her married, going to college and studying to get her degree in Biology and I just have to shake my head and wonder at where all the years have gone to.

It seems like just yesterday that I was changing her diapers, walking the floor with her as she screamed night after night with colic cramps, or with cutting a tooth. I spent hours rocking her in the bentwood rocker that sits in my bedroom, holding her sweet, baby powder smelling body close.

Ahhh and then learning to ride a bike, breaking her hand in the car door, going away from home to camp for the first time and of course those difficult teenage years.

All those thoughts flashed through my mind as we ended the day at El Chico's. Toasting each other with our Margarita glasses I smiled as I looked forward to the day when my daughter has her own babies.

On that day, the day of the birth of my first grandchild, I am going to make sure I tell my daughter this...

Now, that you are old enough to understand from a mothers view point I want to tell you that..

I loved you enough to ask where you were going, whom you were going with, and when you would get home.

I loved you enough to insist you brush you teeth and comb your hair before leaving the house.

I loved you enough to tell you that if you wanted a stereo you would have to earn the money for it by babysitting or saving up your allowance. Even though I knew we could afford to buy it for you.

I loved you enough to stand by watching as you cleaned your room. A chore that should have taken 15 minutes but took two hours. Because I knew that learning to finish what you start is important.

I loved you enough to warn you about your new "Best Friend" and then stand by while you learned for yourself what a jerk she really was.

I loved you enough to let you discover the consequences of your own actions. Even though those consequences almost broke my heart in two.

I loved you enough to let you see me angry, hurt and crying. I let you see my mistakes that I owned up to and apologized to you for. Because you needed to know that Moms aren't perfect either.

Most of all, I loved you enough to say NO when I knew you would hate me for it. Those were the most trying times of all between us. I'm glad now that I won. Because you ended up winning too in the end.



ButteryDelight 58F

9/1/2006 10:54 pm

    Quoting SatinEyes1:
    Buttery...I told my daughter something very similiar when she had my g-baby...but this still teared me up...where have the years gone??? Everyone...enjoy the fleeting years of childhood of your little ones...you can only go back via way of *memory*...make those memories ones that will be passed on, generation to generation...Hugs you.....Satin
good or bad..memories of our children as important.

*hugs ya

Buttery Delight


Dekora 52M
937 posts
9/2/2006 4:47 am

My eldest is my only daughter. I talked to her while she was still in the womb. We talked for hours.

When she was born, she was 2 weeks over due. She was born on the day after my father's birthday, and her brother was born two years and one day later - three birthdays in a row.

As she fussed and cried those first cries from the sudden change in her environment, I was honored to be able to hold and cuddle this squirmy little woman. As she fussed and cried, I leaned down and said, "Now, now, my little girl. Everything's okay..." With that, my daughter stopped crying and turned her head in my direction.

She had my heart before that day. She's owned my heart since that day.

Well done, buttery!


ButteryDelight 58F

9/2/2006 8:41 am

    Quoting Dekora:
    My eldest is my only daughter. I talked to her while she was still in the womb. We talked for hours.

    When she was born, she was 2 weeks over due. She was born on the day after my father's birthday, and her brother was born two years and one day later - three birthdays in a row.

    As she fussed and cried those first cries from the sudden change in her environment, I was honored to be able to hold and cuddle this squirmy little woman. As she fussed and cried, I leaned down and said, "Now, now, my little girl. Everything's okay..." With that, my daughter stopped crying and turned her head in my direction.

    She had my heart before that day. She's owned my heart since that day.

    Well done, buttery!
Dekora, that's wonderful. Girls need their daddies as well as their mommies.

Buttery Delight


loadeddice05 44M

9/2/2006 7:10 pm

What a good mom! That's as mushy as I can get!! But thank god for mom's like you!!

D!!


ButteryDelight 58F

9/2/2006 9:54 pm

    Quoting spunky11961:
    That was Beautiful, They grow up so fast don't they
    ~spunky
yes spunky they do.They grow up too fast.

Buttery Delight


ButteryDelight 58F

9/2/2006 9:56 pm

    Quoting loadeddice05:
    What a good mom! That's as mushy as I can get!! But thank god for mom's like you!!

    D!!
Dice. Sometimes mushy is good.

Buttery Delight


wickedeasy 66F  
25463 posts
9/3/2006 5:29 am

smiles

BD - my mama had that talk with me - i was amazed at how much she had learned since i was 18

You cannot conceive the many without the one.


ButteryDelight 58F

9/3/2006 9:50 pm

    Quoting wickedeasy:
    smiles

    BD - my mama had that talk with me - i was amazed at how much she had learned since i was 18
ahh yes WE. i have a feeling that thinsg willchange when my daughter has a child and all of asudden well what do ya know..i DO know a thing or two.

Buttery Delight


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