A lit fuse  

ButteryDelight 58F
1961 posts
8/14/2006 11:36 am

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A lit fuse

Well, I did it now. I lost my temper this morning. The fuse was lit and I exploded.

Everyday I’ve been going over to take care of Rolf while Rosie has been in the hospital. And every day Rolf has had their dog Mac, the dog from hell, in the house. My husband has been going with me at night and has gone in the house ahead of me to ask Rolf to put the dog away. This means that Mac barks and attacks him but so far Mac has not bitten my husband.

This morning I went to pick up Rosie at the hospital because she was coming home today. Of course I told Rolf that Rosie was coming home today and Rolf was in the hospital room when the doctor told Rosie he was going to release her on Monday. So, he knew what was going to happen this morning. Rosie has begged Rolf every day to make sure that Mac is locked on the back porch and every day Mac has been loose in the house when I have gone over there. I had several close calls where Mac completely by passed my husband by running through his legs and charging me. Not being a fool, I of course ran for the closet. The very same closet I hid in the last time Mac attacked me.

Mac was very upset by this time because strangers were in his house and it took several minutes and several bites to the hand before Rolf was able to get Mac on the back porch. I’ve gone through this every single night since Rosie has been in the hospital. You would think that Rolf getting bit every night as he was trying to put Mac on the back porch would have been powerful incentive not to let that dog out. Nope, it didn’t seem to faze Rolf in the slightest.

This morning when I arrived at the house with Rosie in my car I was hoping and praying that Mac would be on the back porch, I even called ahead and told Rolf we were on our way. I left Rosie in the car and getting her suitcase, I went inside to open the doors for her. I unlocked the door, stepped inside and called out loudly, “Rolf, we’re home.” There was total silence. So, thinking Rolf must be taking a nap I walked into his bedroom. He was on the bed asleep but so was Mac and Mac was not asleep. I froze and cautiously tried to back away. Mac came to his feet and launched himself off the bed straight at me. I turned and ran but Mac followed barking and growling. Rolf woke up and getting off the bed he ran down the hall after us. Well, their house is in a U shape and there we were all running around in circles like one of those Wylie Coyote, Road Runner cartoons. Mac managed to get his teeth into my ankle. I froze and screamed. I was so frightened I ended up kicking Mac down the hall where he laid stunned for a minute.

That was when I lost my temper. Anger filled me. I clenched my fists, got right up in Rolf’s face and yelled PUT THAT DAMN DOG AWAY RIGHT NOW! While I stood there breathing heavily, nose-to-nose with Rolf, Mac sat up and looked at me. Rolf blinked and said all right, went over and picked up Mac and took him out on the back porch. Mac didn’t bark or try to bite Rolf he just went. I think I scared him with my kicking and yelling.

Now I feel

Guilty
Ashamed
Sad
Sorry
Regretful
And aggravated at myself

When I went outside to get Rosie, she could tell by the look on my face that something had happened. With tears in my eyes, I helped her out of the car and into the house. In front of Rolf I told Rosie exactly what happened and what I said.

Why did I do that? Why did I lose my temper? I really don’t know. I know I kicked a dumb animal. I yelled at a patient whom I was supposed to be caring for. I was aggressive towards someone in my care. I was verbally abusive, and totally mishandled the situation. The results of loosing my temper are that now I have to make a written report detailing what happened and what I said. I could be fired from my job if Rosie or Rolf makes a complaint.

Has there been a time when you’ve “blown-up” at someone? How do you feel when you lose your temper? What do you do to handle your anger?



lookingforfun54 60M
86 posts
8/14/2006 12:15 pm

Hello Buttery;

I personally feel that you were right this time. Unfortunately, that may not help in this situation. The old man should be the one to feel bad not you. He knew what was happening and didn't try to stop it. Whether from being ornery or just plain stupid, I don't know. I can see him using the animal to comfort him while his wife is in the hosipital but he knew you would be there and should have made an effort to work with you. Like I said, it is unfortunately that you were forced into this position....


rm_muffin162 55M
763 posts
8/14/2006 12:24 pm

Hello Buttery,i hope you do not lose your job for that incident,and i think your bosses will agree with you.

When i was younger i was always blowing up at people,but as i have matured i have not found myself getting angry in any situations.

If you feel confident in what you are doing and life in general i think you are a bit more relaxed person,dont forget you walked into something that took you by suprise.

If anything i would be complaining about the dog biting me.


ButteryDelight 58F

8/14/2006 2:02 pm

    Quoting lookingforfun54:
    Hello Buttery;

    I personally feel that you were right this time. Unfortunately, that may not help in this situation. The old man should be the one to feel bad not you. He knew what was happening and didn't try to stop it. Whether from being ornery or just plain stupid, I don't know. I can see him using the animal to comfort him while his wife is in the hosipital but he knew you would be there and should have made an effort to work with you. Like I said, it is unfortunately that you were forced into this position....
perhaps so. I just think I was unprofessional in my behaviour that as a home health care nurse I should have handled it better.


DizzyKittie81 35F

8/14/2006 4:21 pm

If i was in your shoes at that time i probably would have done the same thing. he KNOWS how that dog is and he knew you were on your way. I find that you did NOTHING wrong. that dog came attacking you. god forbid what if it was worse you know?

=^..^=


ButteryDelight 58F

8/14/2006 11:13 pm

    Quoting rm_muffin162:
    Hello Buttery,i hope you do not lose your job for that incident,and i think your bosses will agree with you.

    When i was younger i was always blowing up at people,but as i have matured i have not found myself getting angry in any situations.

    If you feel confident in what you are doing and life in general i think you are a bit more relaxed person,dont forget you walked into something that took you by suprise.

    If anything i would be complaining about the dog biting me.
Hi Muffin, thanks for reading my blog and replying.

I hope I get to keep my job too.

This is not the ifrst time Mac has bitten me. It probably won't be the last time either.

Buttery Delight


ButteryDelight 58F

8/14/2006 11:15 pm

    Quoting DizzyKittie81:
    If i was in your shoes at that time i probably would have done the same thing. he KNOWS how that dog is and he knew you were on your way. I find that you did NOTHING wrong. that dog came attacking you. god forbid what if it was worse you know?

    =^..^=

well, Mac definitely has a problem with aggressiveness.

Seems like I have a problem controlling my temper. *sigh

Thank goodness it wasn't any worse.

Buttery Delight


rm_CuummDrop 48F
2591 posts
8/15/2006 5:32 am

BD, hope you're ankle is alright.... No kicking the dog to free you're leg/ankle or whatever the mangy mutt gets ahold to is perfectly feasable, its an instinct and you're instinct to protect yourself come at the right time. Now as far as Rolf, being neglegent about putting up the dog,, maybe that needs to be addressed to his/their family. There is no sense of having such a dog attacking (literally) attacking the care provider, or whomever needs to come into the home to facilitate care. Perhaps speaking to the family about this might help... don't know, but regardless,, i am glad that you are alright and no damage was done.

Hugging the guilt away,

me~c

Now won't last forever, so use it wisely~c


ButteryDelight 58F

8/15/2006 12:39 pm

    Quoting rm_mzhunyhole:
    Everyone does it..don't feel bad..my sis gets on my nerves..she lives in my basement..grrrrrrrrrr.
mizhuny loses her temper too?.. that's amazing. I wouldn;t have thought you were the type to. But, some people can sure push our buttons.

Buttery Delight


ButteryDelight 58F

8/16/2006 7:05 am

    Quoting rm_CuummDrop:
    BD, hope you're ankle is alright.... No kicking the dog to free you're leg/ankle or whatever the mangy mutt gets ahold to is perfectly feasable, its an instinct and you're instinct to protect yourself come at the right time. Now as far as Rolf, being neglegent about putting up the dog,, maybe that needs to be addressed to his/their family. There is no sense of having such a dog attacking (literally) attacking the care provider, or whomever needs to come into the home to facilitate care. Perhaps speaking to the family about this might help... don't know, but regardless,, i am glad that you are alright and no damage was done.

    Hugging the guilt away,

    me~c
Hi wendy..my ankle is fine. There is just some bruising as my jeans protected me for the most part. We have tried talking to Rolf about Mac. It doesn't do any good. psychologically Rolf is dependent upon that dog for companionship.

Buttery Delight


ButteryDelight 58F

8/16/2006 7:09 am

    Quoting spunky11961:
    I've done it too,We all do eventually! Don't feel so bad this was really a provoking situation,and I know how bad you feel! I felt that way the last time as well,I've learned over the years to just not let myself get to upset,but there are those times! This would've done it for me!I'd have lost it there too! I hope everything goes well for you in this,the dog might show you a little more respect now as well!
    You were within your rights here I feel!
    ~Best wishes to ya on this~
    ~spunky
Actually when I went over there to work on Tuesday Mac didn't bark or growl at me but I could still sense that he didn't like me.

Buttery Delight


ButteryDelight 58F

8/16/2006 7:12 am

    Quoting __JVT__:
    BD...they need to get rid of the dog before it bites someone that turns around and takes them to court (or worse...it really hurts someone like a small child)

    There is nothing wrong with losing your temper on occasion...it's what you do with the anger that matters. It sounds to me that you conducted yourself better than many people would in that situation.

    Take care of yourself....

    JVT
JVT, oh they won't get rid of the dog. Every time they have tried to in the past Rolf goes into a severe depression.

They board Mac in a kennel when the grand children coem for avisit.

and back at ya..lol.

Buttery Delight


BadAssBlonde1 56F
4989 posts
8/16/2006 9:39 pm



It happens to the best of us. I typically take ten paces backwards This shall pass darlin'


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ButteryDelight 58F

8/16/2006 11:00 pm

    Quoting BadAssBlonde1:


    It happens to the best of us. I typically take ten paces backwards This shall pass darlin'

I sure hope so, BAB.

Buttery Delight


GossipJunkie 40F

8/30/2006 7:43 am

This is a bit belated, but I agree with JVT. That dog should be put down. It should NOT be attacking you this far in the game. You're not a stranger to that household.

GossipJunkie
"Dance like nobody's watching"


ButteryDelight 58F

8/30/2006 9:12 am

    Quoting GossipJunkie:
    This is a bit belated, but I agree with JVT. That dog should be put down. It should NOT be attacking you this far in the game. You're not a stranger to that household.
hey..better late than never!

*sighs it might eventually have to come to putting Mac to sleep as he bites everyone..even his owners.

Buttery Delight


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