Just a lonely heart, searching.....  

BustyBabe123 50F
6 posts
1/26/2006 10:10 am

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Just a lonely heart, searching.....


Where do I start? Met a great guy on this site & really fell (hard!) for him......now he won't contact me & I'm wondering if it's something I did wrong. When you find someone w/whom you connect on a deeper level, it really means something. In 39 yrs, I've connected w/so few people in my life, I was beginning to lose faith that I would ever meet someone truly special!! Maybe it's my own fault......maybe I was too afraid to use the "L" word w/him (he did!!!)....& now not having him in my life feels so incredibly wrong. I can't decribe the pain & loneliness I feel right now, missing him so. I promised myself I wouldn't get "attached" at this point in my life...that I wouldn't fall in love......but it's too late -- I am SO THERE!!! Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic but I believe in love, & long to be in his arms again....just holding him now would put that sparkle back in my eyes. Not to sound like a total "Fanilow", but in the words of Mr. Manilow: "I can't smile without you......." Ironically, it was my smile that lit up his world. Now I can't/won't smile.....until he's back in my life. Maybe I should just go on w/my life, endure, like always......but the heart wants what it wants...& I want HIM. Thanks for reading & good luck in your own search!

rm_ohsolustful 57M
859 posts
1/26/2006 12:23 pm

Try again, you don't have anything to lose and so much to gain, love is like the lottery, ya can't win unless ya play................Go play!!!!!!!!!!!!send him an email, tell him the truth about your feelings


BustyBabe123 50F

1/26/2006 1:11 pm

Thanks for the encouragement....I emailed him a few times in the last 3 days, but no response. My guy friends say he doesn't care!!!!!


Cuddley_fun 44
7 posts
1/26/2006 3:02 pm

He is scared to commit to a full relationship, he may have said the "L" word, he did mean it, he's just a typical man, like the rest of us. He's probably afraid that you and he after awhile will fall apart, he has probably experienced this over the years with a similar on-line experience. He needs re-assurance, he needs to talk to other males that have found this type of dating successful, you need to hang in there, keep sending emails. He will realise you are there for the long haul, I think if you are ment for each other, it will happen.

Give him a second, third or even more, he will come to you, stay in there and good luck.........


BustyBabe123 50F

1/27/2006 12:04 pm

Wow, sounds like you know your stuff. I've been reading "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" (again!)& I think I understand, but it's not easy....but if he's meant for me, I'm sure I'll hear from him again. I just don't want to to seem desperate or lovesick!!! (I'm neither...)Thanks again!!!


BustyBabe123 50F

1/30/2006 1:15 pm

Thanks for the great comments, guys.........but it looks like I've been DUMPED after all. It's not that I expected him to love me forever.......I just can't believe he kept telling me he loved me & then pulled a "wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am" after one short weekend. I was prepared for marathons with him!!!! Well, it's a damn good thing I didn't "pull out all the stops" with him.....I held back & I'm glad I did!!!!!)

Serves me right for being so trusting.......


BustyBabe123 50F

1/31/2006 11:16 am

Ok....if I EVER decide to hook up w/someone again.....so unlikely at this point!!!!...I will make sure I know his real NAME!!!!

No one wants to be lied to...not about BASIC stuff like someone's NAME, right??!!!! Just getting this off my chest.........have been so upset lately......


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